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to God; to resist my besetting The Apostles prayed for boldness sins; to be on my watch against to speak his word. When they neglecting private devotion, and to had prayed, they were filled with make it a main object to live to the Holy Spirit to speak the word God. May the Lord help me!

with all boldness. How true it “ Jan. 5, 1820.-I feel my de- is, “As thy day is, so shall thy pendence on God for every thing. strength be.' If left to myself, I must fall; I

May 15. END OF SCRIPcan only cry, Lord, hold thou TURES.-An angel (Acts, v.) is me up, so shall I be safe.'

sent from heaven to liberate the “ Feb. 18. — I little thought I Apostles, and what is his message? should have seen so much of my Go, speak unto the people all the own heart.

Lord, give me a new words of this life. Do, then, the heart!

words of Jesus and his disciples “ March 7. - DAY OF JUDG- lead to life? O how careful should MENT.-What crowds to see the I be ever so to esteem them when chairing of the new member to-day, reading, and so to be influenced in and what a small company at church practising them! to-night! There is only one day in “ June 4.--NECESSITY OF FIRMwhich men will assemble in a NESS.-I seem to see somewhat larger multitude for religion than more of the necessity of counting for the world; and that is, the day the cost. Sloth and evil desires are of judgment.

my besetting sins; and with these March 8.—PRESUMPTION.- I must part. It is necessary to set Adam probably expected that Eve my face like a flint against these. would have died immediately on Like a man with his back to a tree, taking the forbidden fruit, and was determined not to yield to his foes, thus perhaps emboldened to com- so sometimes do I feel, praying at mit the same sin.

the same time mightily for help. “April 30.--HOLINESS.--I was “ I learnt this day, that by negmuch struck in chapel this morn- lect of private prayer our foes are ing with that part of the Te strengthened. When Moses held Deum, “ To Thee cherubim and up his hands, Israel prevailed, &c. seraphim continually do cry, Ho- Lord, keep me always fervent in ly, Holy, Holy, 'Lord God of prayer! Sabaoth. Is this the burden of July 13.-NEED OF SPIRITUtheir song? Amidst all the other ALITY.-Without maintaining the attributes of the Almighty, bis spirit of religion continually in the power, wisdom, goodness, mercy, mind, I find it impossible to resist &c. &c. is holiness alone selected ? sin and Satan. We must be armed How, then, should we labour to with the Christian panoply, or else be holy as he is holy! As their song we shall inevitably be wounded in is continual, so should our pantings the conflict. after boliness be. How season- Sept. 3.-CONFLICT.--I am able will it be to remember this determined, by God's grace, to in times of temptation ! • Holiness give myself up to him. I cast mybecometh


house for ever.' self on his mercy and help. I say, “May 8.-NEED OF THE INFLU- Save, Lord, or I perish.' 'I - ENCE OF THE SPIRIT.- What need cannot deliver myself from the do

have we of the influences of the minion of sin. But the Saviour is Spirit to give us even a taste for the mighty. Lord, increase my faith, Scriptures, as well as an insight and keep me from falling. into their truths. • O Lord, take “ Sept. 4.- ENCOURAGEMENT. not thy holy Spirit from me.' -I feel encouragement in this, that

May 14. -HELP IN Need.- I want nothing but what God is


all things.


willing to bestow. The Apostle I did not tell you' (for his memoSt. Peter says, that we should live ty seemed to have failed him). He the rest of our time to the will of had, indeed, told them of it before; God, and this is what I want above but it was sufficiently marked in

his countenance and behạviour, so “ DIFFICULTY OF FAITH. as to be visible by all. When I How difficult is faith—a constant was reading the above passage, he and habitual confiding-trusting in said, 'I am ready! I am ready!' nothing but in the grace of God! - (and I think also,) - Come, For we naturally had rather trust Lord Jesus. He requested me, to any thing for deliverance than to if I did not think it too much, to go the power of God!

to prayer. I did so. He joined Sept. 7. WE STAND BY with energy and loudness in part of Faith. I can only be kept upright the Lord's Prayer; having before by the power of God, by applying told his wife to be still, and not incontinually to Christ; pleading terrupt him with her lamentations, what he has done, and laying hold After prayer, I wished him good of his strength. We are kept by bye; and he said, he hoped we the power of God through faith.' should meet shortly, or at least

“Sept. 10. - WATCHFULNESS. (meaning not to wish my life short) -- How powerful is our great adver- but that at least we should sary! Every moment are we ex- meet again in heaven. He surposed to his attacks. If foiled in vived the day; and I was nearly one attempt, he tries another; if on the point of going to inquire after oue sin allures not, another appa- him, when H. came up, and inrently less heinous is made use of formed me that he had left this to draw us from God; so that we world about nine this morning. need to be watchful in all things. When I first called on him, “ This day W—died, after a

died, after a about two months ago, from an long illness. H. and myself had expression which he made use of, visited him repeatedly. Hearing that he did as well as he could,' that he was very near his end I was somewhat afraid lest he yesterday, I called immediately might be trusting to himself, or to after breakfast. His face presented any thing he could do for salvation, a deathlike appearance; but he and therefore guarded him against it; was very happy in his mind. They and endeavoured in my feeble way told me that he was now assured to point out the Saviour. During of his interest in Christ. The Bible the time I have seen him, I have being put into my hands, I asked great reason to ured that his him what part he would wish me trust was in Christ alone for salvato read; he replied, About the re- tion. He loved to read the word surrection. I turned to the 15th of of God; had marked particular 1st Corinthians; but as he at times passages, and seemed always most appeared likely to breathe his last, unhappy when, through the force 1 only read a part, making now and of his disorder, he had not been then a remark suitable to the’occa- able to attend to divine things, sion. Great was his animation He would say, with evident feelwhen I came to this, O death, ings of regret, • I have not been where is thy sting? O grave, where able to think much to-day!' And is thy victory?' He clapped his though, when he got very little hands while I was reading this, and sleep in the night, he was very on his countenance was marked the subject to dozing in the day, yet he greatest joy and triumph. Lle had used to strive against it, because before said two or three times, it disqualified him for reading and • How came you to know all this? meditation. Sometimes he would

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say, he was more comfortable than have little hopes of succeeding in before; from which it was evident, September on account of my eyes, that he had felt his ruined state by which prevent my reading hard.” nature, and was seeking deliver- And in another letter, written duance. He seemed to have a full per- ring the examination, he writes, suasion, that he should see things "I say continually, Thy will more clearly before he died. He be done.” Agar’s petition was. a was exhorted to seek earnestly for good one, • Give me neither poit; and I believe verily that he ob- verty nor riches, feed me with food tained it that he was fully assured convenient for me.' Prov. xxx. before his death of his interest in 8. Poor short-sighted creatures as Christ.

we are, we know not what on the “ To the Lord be all the praise! whole may be best for us; we May he enable me to be more ac- should often choose what would be. tive in his service!

most injurious in this world and the Sept. 17.-CONFLICT, AND next. Lot seems an awful instance HOW TO GET THE VICTORY.-My of this; what a bitter choice his song shall be of the mercies of the proved! When, in addition to this, Lord, and I will now recount his I consider the uncertainty of all loving kindness. About two months things here below, I rejoice to ago, I became sensible that I was commit all my ways into the hands deceiving myself. I had given way of an almighty Friend. My days to my besetting sin, but I now

saw on the earth may not be long. I am that it must be conquered. I re- reminded of this continually, and solved not to indulge sinful thoughts especially by the loss of several any longer, but still Satan kept me men in one year. Blundell, you as his captive. I tried the most know, died last year; Stainforth likely means to overcome my sins, has since followed. There are only but all failed; Satan still kept me four of us candidates ;

we are left as his captive. I found all human a few of many." The number of means in vain ; I committed the Fellowships vacant is eight, nummatter to the Lord. At first I was ber of candidates twenty-three.” foiled, and I began to despair of The following paragraph appears ever gaining the victory. But I also in the book before referred to: made my supplication to God, and « TRUST IN GOD.During this find, that when I am weak, then week we shall sit for Fellowships. am I strong.' (See Sept. 3, 4, 7.) I I believe it will be all ordered for believe, that through his grace I the best. I sometimes find a great shall be victorious. But it was a load; but the question of my

Lord hard matter simply to exercise faith comes to my mind;

• What do ye in Christ, much harder than to un- more than others?' of what avail is dergo any self-denial or even tor- your trust in God, if it fail you in ture.

such a season as this ?'“ I see how God has helped me, When the examination closed, and therefore humbly trust, that and he was, as he clearly anticihe will still continue so to do. pated, disappointed of success, he Lord, help my unbelief!”

writes, Mr. E. was now approaching “ I have now sat for a Fellowthat examination which was either ship, and failed. to issue in his election as Fellow of “I am satisfied, as it is the Lord's Trinity, or terminate all his college will; having nothing wherewith to prospects. At this trying time he reproach myself on this head. My had recourse to his principles for path, it seems, must lie through support. He had intimated to a the valley of humiliation; no doubt friend, in the July preceding, “I it will be better for me."

And under date Oct. 1, 1820, “ Oct. 15.-I was this day orin a letter to a friend,

dained Deacon by the Bishop of “ It hath pleased the Author and Norwich on letters dimissory from Giver of all good to keep back from Canterbury. Fifteen deacons and me the object of my pursuit. I feel fifteen priests ordained at the same submissive, and can truly say, time. May they all be useful in the Thy will be done.""

Church of Christ! Lord, help me No sooner was this point settled, to be faithful—to feel the importthan, without a moment's delay,

ance of the office more and more, he devoted himself “ to work in and to approve myself to God as good earnest,” as he expresses it, his ambassador, not regarding the

in the vineyard." In order to opinions of men." this, he waited upon the Rev. Dr. On his arrival at Stisted, Mr. E. Seale, Rector of Stisted, near immediately engaged with the utBraintree, whose curacy was at most assiduity in the labours of the that time vacant. It was of great ministerial office. When the people importance to Dr. S. that his cu- first saw him, they literally inracy should be immediately sup- quired, “What can this young plied; that the person whom he man say?

?” But they were soon nominated should be one who constrained to acknowledge, that would most probably continue his word was with power : he was some time in the situation; and fervent, animated, solemn, and pathat, if possible, the curate should thetic. One striking feature of his be a gentleman already in orders. preaching was, persuading by the On all these points there were dif

love of Christ. He would often ficulties. Mr. E. was not yet in say, “ I am always afraid of drivorders; he must wait some weeks; ing them away from the Saviour; and it was at that time very pro- I would rather err on the side of bable that he might succeed to a drawing them. The following exsmall living in Yorkshire, in the tract from his papers may illusgift of Trinity College, and to trate his reasoning. which his attention was called by “Conversing with W.W-on one of the examiners for the fel. prayer, I said, “The promise is, lowship, the Rev. Professor Monk, every one that asketh receiveth, now Dean of Peterborough. The every one,' &c. What can we wish penetration of Dr. S. enabled him for more? Christ would not have to discover, that Mr. E. was in told us this if it had not been really every respect the person 'suited to 80.'-'Ono,' said he, that he his curacy;


he would not!" waived every objection, gave him

In June 1822, he had an oppora title, treated him with the utmost tunity of visiting his friends in kindness and attention, and mourn- Yorkshire, whom he had not seen ed over his illness and removal with for two years; but the time of conthe affection of a father. In conse- firmation drawing near, he felt he quence of the kind intervention of could not leave his young people, the Rev. Dr. Wordsworth, the and therefore declined undertaking Master of Trinity College, and the journey. He employed much some other circumstances, Mr. E. time in the school-room explaining was ordained Deacon, Oct. 15, on the nature of the ordinance, and letters dimissory from the Archbi- 'expounding suitable passages of shop of Canterbury, having tra- Scripture previous to confirmation; velled four hundred miles in the and he afterwards addressed those course of a few days, that he might who had been confirmed, from the enter a few weeks earlier on his

passage, Vow, and

pay unto the delightful work.

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upon them the duty of solemnly exerted himself also very consicommemorating their Saviour's love derably in the instruction of young by attending at the Lord's table; persons. He had indeed iwo an exhortation with which some regular pupils during the year, and have since complied. He then received two others from Camsaid, "Now I will leave them;" bridge for the long vacation ; but implying that he should let the sub- though he had numerous applicaject rest for a season. I feel tions, he declined receiving more, very glad I did not go home ; per- saying, “ If I comply I must neghaps I may not be with them an- lect my parish, and this I will not other confirmation.”

do." Mr. E. diligently visited his « In October 1822,” says Miss people from house to house, espe- E. " we went to town on our way cially those who were ill, never to Yorkshire. The night before, we waiting to be sent for. He regu- had the school as usual; the people farly attended two who resided a took a most affectionate leave, saymile and a half from him, twice a ing, they should never see us more, week, and sometimes oftener, for The young people, as if with one the space of twelve months. On consent, burst into tears. My dear one occasion, he was called up at brother alone was firm.

• Come, two in the morning, to 'attend the said he to the children, go home, aying pillow of one to whose con- and do as you have heard ; that will version he had heen instrumen- be better than staying and crying tał; and though he found him in- here.'” This was the more remarksensible, he continued offering up able, as Mr. E had not at that time fervent prayers on his behalf, experienced any indisposition; and, which the Lord graciously heard except a slight degree of languor, and answered. The violence of had enjoyed uninterrupted health the pain was mercifully removed, during his residence at Stisted. and the individual spared, and On his arrival at Hull, Mr. E. permitted, in company with Miss preached at St. John's on the SunEscreet and a pious neighbour, day morning, from,“ Come thou to partake

of the Lord's supper. with us, and we will do thee good;".. Some shott time after, Mr. E, and in the evening at St. Mary's, was again sent for; and while from, “ In my Father's house are kneeling at the 'bedside praying, many mansions.” He preached the poor man gently expired. One the following Sunday at the same striking effect of the tendency churches, terminating his public of true religion was seen in this in- ministry at St. Mary's, the church dividual. Twelve months before of bis affectionate tutor, with a dishe was ignorant of his letters, but course from Ps. xxiii. “ The Lord previous to his removal he could is my shepherd; I shall not want." quote any part of the New Tes- On the Tuesday afternoon he was timent.

seized, without any previous sympThe poor people at Stisted esta- tom of indisposition, with a spitting blished a small fund for the relief of blood. Recourse was immediof sick persons, to which Mr. E. ately had to medical assistance, largely contributed, and which af- and he appeared recovering for forded him great delight, both as about a fortnight, when he was tending to increase his usefulness, seized with a relapse, was again and evincing the excellent spirit bled, and reduced very low.which prevailed among the people. “While in this feeble state,” says In allusion to it in one of his let- Miss E. “I had been sitting by him ters, he says, “ Is pot this one for some time, and we had scarcely of the fruits of the Spirit?” Mr. E. spoken to each other, conversation

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