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being obviously in such a complaint enabled to plead the promises of the improper, when he rose up, and Saviour in prayer, particularly his standing by the fire, said, Sa invitations to come unto him weary rah, I have given all up. I re- and heavy laden. O how precious plied, in much grief, I think, are these promises ! love, it is not sinful to hope while Friday, Nov. 29.- In prayer, there is life.' He said, “No, not the blessedness of the man who is for you; but it is better for me to under the protection of God (Ps. give up all.""

xc.) occurred to me. Thought I, The feelings, however, of his What mercies does God give to his own mind will be best learned from people who trust in him liere and the following extracts from his diary, hereafter! Such good things, as

Tuesday, Nov. 5, 1822.-09 no eye hath seen, no tongue ean rising from dinner, was seized with tell, no heart conceive. I trust, I au expectoration of blood-put to was enabled to be thankful. How bed, and bled. The next morning is the word of God food to the soul again expectorated, and again bled. when it is in a proper state! O my Through the whole was preserved soul, wait on the Lord! It is a calm and composed, and enabled mercy to have been afilicted, to to resign all into the Lord's hands. find the sweetness of the word. O . It is the Lord, let him do what may I find it more! seeneth him good. I had prayed, Dec. 9.-I am improving daily that I might not be lifted up by my in health. O Lord, let my spiripublic ministrations; but still, I tual health also grow! Grant that am afraid, felt some pride in wish- I may feed and be nourished by ing to do as well as possible, and thy holy word, so that it might be did not wish to be checkæi in that said, Mayest thou prosper and way.

The Lord answered me, be in health, even as thy soul perhaps, by this illness. Lord, prospereth! O take not thine henceforth give me humility! Give holy Spirit from me. me it in thine own way.

Dec. 12.-Yesterday evening, “ For a fortnight seemed improv, in bed, these words came to my ing in health. But,

mind, Be careful for nothing,' “ Nov. 21, Was threatened with &c. and I found them refreshing. a relapse, and bled again. I then Perhaps, thought I, when I leave felt more than ever the uncertainty this place, I may be taken ill on of life, and the probable nearness the road, and thus exchange all of death; and instead of praying, the comforts of home for the inas before, Lord, restore me to conveniences of an inn; neverthemy parish!' my prayer was, “less, · be careful for nothing.'spare me a little, that I may re- • Lo, he hath said, “I will never cover my strength, before I go leave thee; I will never, no, never hence, and am no more seen!' forsake thee!' Perhaps, on my

“ Nov. 22. Morning.–I derived return, I may be unable to do duty, comfort from considering, that if and then be obliged to leave my admitted into heaven, I could pro- people- Be careful for nothing; strate myself as low as any before the Lord will provide.' Or perthe throne, feeling my condition as haps my complaint may then rea guilty sinner, and my debt to the turn through exertion, gather adSaviour; and that I thought I ditional strength, and in a ew could take pleasure in the employ, months consign me to the gravement of heaven. These were my Be careful for nothing.' The Lord evidences which afforded comfort is all-sufficient. O my soul, comin such a season.

mit thy way unto the Lord, he shall " Monday, Nov. 25, E.-Was direct thy paths. With such proz

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mises, what needest thou to fear? sted, he was most obviously ripenLord, help me to pray more ear- ing for heaven. Dear John," Destly!

says his sister, in one of her memo“ I lately heard of the death of randums, “

to get within and this morning of that of the vail. He really appears in such

If they were not of the close communion with his God, as number of thy people, O Lord, makes me feel he is not long to be lay not their blood to my charge! an inhabitant of earth.”. Pardon the numerous sins of thy On arriving in town, he soon disservant, and make me in future covered, what indeed he had doubtmore faithful in private as well as less anticipated, that there was no public.

prospect of recovery. Miss E. ac“I this day heard that Mr. Dunn cordingly remarks: could supply my cure until I was “ March 4. ‘After the medical able to take it myself. How mer- attendant was gone, he said, “I ciful is the Lord to me!”

think, Sarah, they give us but poor Our limits compel us to draw hopes.' I replied in tears, No;' to a close. Mr. E. continued at Hull when he gently raised his hand, about two months longer. He felt and said, · The Lord's will be especially grateful, that the attack done; if I am spared, I shall have took place at home, in the society much to tell; 'if taken, I shall of his dear father, mother, and bro- escape many storms and trials ther; in his native place, where he through this life.' I said, it is was almost daily favoured with the hard to part: when, turning and visits of pious and excellent minis- looking sweetly, with somewhat ters, some of whom he had known of from a child, and who were deeply

Lo ecstatic joy, he replied, 'O

I shall be ready to welcome you interested in his cares; and sur- on the shores of heaven.'" rounded by numerous and sympa. The next day he directed letters thizing friends; for it may truly to be written, inquiring for a suithe said, all who knew him loved able person to succeed him in the him.

curacy, having previously made On Jan. 14, Mr. E. left Hull in arrangements with respect to his company with his sister, and after pupils. staying two nights at Cambridge, On the 7th, the Rev. Mr. Webarrived safely at Stisted. His ster called, with whom Mr. E. had cough reappeared on the journey, been acquainted from the time he though with little expectoration. went to college, in consequence of He expressed great satisfaction on their mutual connexion with Mr. being with his own people; and Scott, The following memorandum speaking of some books he had was made by Mr. W, on the ocpurchased as prizes for the chil- casion: dren, and of the increase of his “I received a note yesterday subscription to the sick fund, re- from Miss Escreet, requesting me marked, “ You see I can do no- to call upon her brother, and intithing for your souls, I must do mating that he was in imminent what I can


your bodies." Du- danger. I should have visited him ring the whole of this short stay at immediately, but it being my lecStisted his cough increased, and ture night I could not go. I went other unfavourable symptoms ap- this morning. After a previous pearing, it was determined to re- conversation with Miss E. which move to town for farther advice, satisfied


mind that there was no where, in consequence, he arrived prospect of a recovery, or even of a the latter end of February. In the long continuance, I was introduced interval of his continuance at Sti- into his room. I found him lying on a sofa, exceedingly reduced, and hours, added, “ It must be an evidently approaching to the grave. anxious time for thee."' Mr. E reAfter some little conversation, I plied, “O no, I am ready either intimated, that not having seen him for life or death." After this

gensince he was in full health and vi- tleman had left, Miss E. was sitgour, the change in his appearance ting by him in tears; he put his might be more striking to me than arm round her neck, and said, “O to others; but at the same time, I my sister, O my sister, weep not apprehended his own observation for me! Rejoice!” and pausing of sick persons must have con- a moment, said, “ Rejoice with me vinced him of the danger of his if I stay! Rejoice with me if I situation, though of course no one go.”. To a gentleman who called could say how long the Lord might soon after, and inquired, “Sir, do spare him, or what his purposes you think you are near your end ?” concerning him were. He replied, he replied, " I don't know; I am that he was perfectly happy; he as a traveller, and know not how trusted he was ready for life or near I am to my home.” After death. He mentioned having been this person had left him, he said, exceedingly low and uncomfortable “ I have been exanrining my evithe preceding night, but that about dences for heaven, and am satisthree o'clock he was enabled to fied: I know. I must come as a peleave himself entirely in the Lord's nitent sinner to the foot of the cross; hands, and found a sweet compo- then I can lie as low as any one, sure which left him nothing to wish and not fear acceptance. for. After conversing some time, In this calm, composed, resigned we engaged in prayer; and, though frame of mind Mr. E. continued I designedly made use of expres- during the night. He pronounced sions clearly evincing my anticipa- upon his affectionate sister, who tion of a speedy removal, I found never left him right or day, an alhim, on rising from my knees, not most patriarchal blessing; and only calm and composed, but with about ten the ensuing morning, havan expression in his countenance of ing not long before said, “ Lord be satisfaction and delight in the pro- merciful to me! Lord Jesus receive spect which lay before him. He my spirit !” he fell asleep. requested, and I cheerfully pro- His mortal remains were intermised an early repetition of my call. red among his beloved people at But it pleased "God to appoint Stisted. The funeral service was otherwise. He was removed early read by the worthy Rector, Dr. the next day.”

Seale, who, though deeply affectThe apothecary who attended ed by his loss, was yet able to offiMr. E. and who is one of the So- ciate on the melancholy occasion ; ciety of Friends, called in the even- and the event was improved the ing, and having been previously following Sunday by a funeral serdesired by one of his affectionate mon_from his affectionate friend relatives to communicate to Mr. E. the Rev. E. White, of Gosfield, his real state, said to him, in the on Acts, XX. 31,

“ Therefore kindest manner,

“ I think it my watch, and remember, that by the duty to tell thee, that thy taber- space of three years I ceased not to nacle is fast giving way;" and on warn every one night and day with intimating that a great change had tears." taken place in the last twenty-four


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in expressions and desires. Many I will in this letter dwell a little people seem to think, that a prayer on the subject of private prayer, must be of à certain length, and as the loose verbal hints I gave you consist of a set of well-arranged long since,' may perhaps have phrases, in order to be acceptable; éscaped your memory. I have and such prayers are too frequently never thought of asking, whether in offered as meritorious duties. But your private devotions you adopt be assured, that a prayer thus ofthe practice of free or extempore fered, bowever long and well-comprayer, which I recommended to posed, will be displeasing to God; you in preference to a form. If while the humble prayer of the you have, I hope that what I shall heart, though without a prescribed say will additionally convince you form, though presented with a falof its propriety; and if you have tering tongue and in homely lannot, that my arguments will induce guage, only in the silent language you to make the trial. I shall urge of the heart when it is too big for it chiefly from my own experience, utterance, except in a broken sigh, conceiving that to be the best mode shall be both heard and answered. of impressing your mind on this and The former is from proud self-the similar subjects.

well-regulated prayer of the lip; Private prayer consists in asking the latter is from God, and dictated the relief of our own individual and by his Spirit. Once more I would peculiar wants; the same petitions, remark, that by free prayer a much therefore, will not always be 'suit- deeper experience is gained of the able, since our wants and circum- soul's rearness to, or distance from stances are continually varying. I God, and of the spirituality or carremember, that when I first en: nality of the mind, than by a form gaged in the delightful and import- of words, wirich (as I intimated ant exercise of prayer, I wrote a before) we are apt to think always prayer from the dictates of my own acceptable, because offered with heart, and that in a season when regularity, and without effort or my spiritual wants were various embarrassment. In short, there are and urgent: yet I found, that the so many obvious and important-adcontinual repetition of it was pro- vantages derived from free prayer, ductive of a deadness in the exer- in private devotion, that I think cise, and that it was frequently un- their own weight will be sufficient suitable to the circumstances of the to recommend it to your decided moment. This obliged me occa- preference: and I doubt not that sionally to add more appropriate the blessing of God will attend it. petitions, in which I experienced The most obvious interpretation so much warmth of devotion, and of the verses in Matt. xv. which nearness of communion with my you do not comprehend, appears heavenly Father, and such liveli- to be this. The wonian who is the ness in the duty, that I shortly subject of the narrative, being a laid my written prayer aside, and Canaanite, was, on that accoutit

, ventured to pray out of the scanti- held in the greatest contempt by the ness or abundance of my heart; and Jews; wherefore, when, upoti her though at times I have been scarce- first application to Christ (ver. 22), ly able to utter a syllable, and he gave her no answer, the disciples hardly knew my own wants, yet at took his silence for an indication of other times I have abounded both his displeasure at her importunity; and therefore, too much in the spi- of his chosen people, you know are rit of their countrymen, besought considered as dogs.” Then follows him to send her away.

But it is the woman's humble yet confident evident, that he only meant thereby reply (ver. 27), which may be thus to try her faith. This was put to à interpreted; “ Lord, I confess the still severer test, by his declara- truth of thy declaration; but since tion in ver. 24. Her confidence, the dogs are permitted to eat of however, was unshaken, and she the crumbs that fall from their masrenewed her importunity with in- ter's table, so I, renouncing all creased vehemence (ver.

25). But claim to thy mercy, would humbly now came her fiery trial; for, in hope for this single display of it on ver. 26, Jesus seems to take up the my behalf as thy free gift; consilanguage of her enemies, which dering myself as the meanest of thy may be thus paraphrased : “Since, dependents, and altogether a debtor as I have declared, I am only sent to thy undeserved mercy.Upon to the lost sheep of the house of this astonishing proof of unshaken Israel, you cannot suppose it right faith, the blessed Jesus fully grantfor me to confer those blessings ed her request (ver. 28). which belong to them as the chil

I remain dren of God, upon such as are his Your affectionate brother, enemies, and who, in comparison

N. G.


There is a world we have not seen,

That time sball never dare destroy ;
Where mortal footstep hath not been,

Nor ear has caught its sounds of joy.
There is a region, lovelier far

Than sages tell or poets sing,
Brighter than summer's beauties are,

And softer than the tints of spring.
There is a world, and O how blest!

Faircr than prophets ever told;
And never did an angel guest

One half its blessedness unfold.
It is all holy and serene,

The land of glory and repose;
And there, to dim the radiant scene,

The tear of sorrow never flows.
It is not fanned by summer gale,

'Tis not refreshed by vernal showers;
It never needs the moon-beam pale,

For there are known no evening hours.
No; for this world is ever bright,

With a pure radiance all its own:
The streams of uncreated light

Flow round it from the eternal throne.
There, forms that mortals may not see,

Too glorious for the eye to trace,
And clad in peerless majesty,

Move with unutterable grace.
In vain the philosophic eye

May seek to view the fair abode,
Or find it in the curtain'd sky:-


WAY 1823.


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