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derstanding Arch-deacon lofty looks brought down, and the at B. is looked up to as a Samson Lord alone exalted.' The Lord in the cause of Church rights ; has been searching and trying his but I feel, my dear, that it is not heart and reins, and given him to the church walls or steeple, but the hunger and thirst after brighter spirit abiding within, which God manifestations of his interest in the will acknowledge. I am not well, blood and righteousness of Immabut should it be the will of God to nuel, and to cry aloud for an inward improve my bodily health, we may witness of the Eternal Spirit with bend our course towards you; but his spirit, that he might with more my fixed prayer, I hope, will ever full assurance of faith approach be for spiritual strength, and then, God, as his Abba, Father,' and there is naught to fear. Your rejoice with that joy unspeakable uncle hopes to be in London at the and full of glory, which so many next May meetings, and taste the of the children of God are privigood things there. May we all be leged to do.

These prayers have fed with that Spirit, which makes been most manifestly heard and me, more than ever, your affec- answered by Him, who has not tionate aunt, A. 0." Oh! what said to the seed of Jacob, Seek a change was here ; truly may we

ye my face in vain.'

On the night say,

“What hath God wrought!" of the 24th of February, in his I sent my dear uncle “ Toplady's waking hours, our dear uncle Prayers and Meditations." These seemed to be more than usually he appears to have valued ex- ill; a fear of death came upon tremely; and after his death they him, nevertheless he was enabled were returned to me, with these to exclaim, The Lord's will be words written on the title-page, done;' but very soon after he said, “E. 0,-The valuable and inesti- • he seemed, as it were, to see the mable gift of my dear – Lord standing by him, and to hear What a proof was this, that “old his voice, shewing him that He things had passed way, and all was the God that had fed and led things become new :" for the time him all his days up to that time, was, when the very name of and was so surrounding him with

Toplady” would only have mercies, which he did not till then brought forth reproaches from his so clearly discover ; indeed, was lips. About two years

before answering all his prayers by maniMr. O.'s death, they removed to festing himself to him in all his another part of Wales, and his preciousness- -as a Redeemer and health becoming much worse, he Sanctifier—in a way which (my went to London for advice. During dear uncle says,) he can never exhis severe illness there, which pre- press, but shall never, never forget. ceded his death, a favourite niece, So that he was enabled to rejoice who was staying with Mr. and in all he had suffered, and did Mrs. O., wrote to me as follows : suffer, and that the Lord might

The change in our dear uncle's see fit to appoint for him to suffer state of mind is most wonderful, still, for it was comparatively a and I do hope the inward man is light affliction, to that

which being renewed day by day, and had been vouchsafed to him.' And that he does possess a good hope, indeed it so filled him with love, through grace, of a joyful resur- joy, and gladness, that he said, rection. He has been of late his heart quite overflowed within humbled as a little child, the him, with gratitude and praise;'

peace

of

and you would, my dear Mrs. disciples, and exhorting them to have rejoiced with us, the next continue in the faith.” But though morning, to have heard him re- she was naturally of a most lively count, with tears of joy, all the and cheerful turn, yet there was blessedness of the past night! It one dark cloud, which would somewas, indeed, such glad tidings' times overshadow her in a painful as I shall never forget, and for degree, and this was " the fear of which all praise is due. Our dear death.

It was

a subject she uncle has been much edified of late, never liked to touch upon, and her by reading the Life of Gen. Burn, dear husband's name too, was al. and has derived more spiritual ways most remarkably avoided by good from that book, than from her. When she left my dwelling any other, except his Bible. The for the last time, she put a sealed morning following the blessed packet into my hand ; it contained night described above, he acci- one of her own diamond rings, and dentally opened the first volume, was intended for one

my chil. at page 272, which was truly de- dren, to whom she was godmother. scriptive of the state of his own A bit of card tied to the ring had mind for some weeks previous. these words written upon it, with He has again, this morning, been her own hand, -"This bauble is speaking of the Lord's mercies to presented to my dear little godhim, in the presence of his sister- daughter, with earnest prayer that in-law, and expressed, before her, she may possess the richest of all his full assurance

that all was blessings — the pearl of great working together for his eternal price,' good, and that he would not About a year after Mrs. O's change situations with any one ; return to her southern friends, and for that he enjoyed that peace, when I was anticipating a visit to which the world can neither give her new abode, I received the folnor take away.

lowing letter, from the same friend Oh, reader! had you known who wrote me the tidings of dear Mr. O. in his natural state, you Mr. O.'s death and his last hours : would, indeed, wonder at the dis

My dear

-,-How uncerplay of God's mercy in his case. tain are all things here! you know "My people shall be willing in our dear aunt has never had a the day of my power," was truly settled home since my uncle's verified in his history!

death, and she visited all her After the death of Mr. O., his friends last summer, not having dear widow could not fix in a made

up

her mind where she settled home for some time, and should pitch her tent. she paid two visits to me, at two

thus that the Lord, who moves distant periods; but how changed in a mysterious way,' seems to I found her! She, who would have led her from one family to once willingly have brought me another, enabling her to speak back to “ more rational views of a word in season' to each, and at religion,” was now my teacher ! length brought her to the very -a living example of holy devoted place of her nativity. There was ness to her Saviour's cause; and à most desirable- residence, next during these two visits, as well as door to my cousin

her in those paid to her other friends favourite niece, and this house she and relatives, she may be described engaged, as her future abode; for as “comforting the souls of the in addition to its vicinity to my

It was

cousin, it was not far from our been poorly herself,) quickly went other aunt; and dear Mrs, 0, to our beloved aunt's room, when, thought it would be a comfort to with extended arms and a counte. her sister to have her within reach. nance beaming with joy, she thus Accordingly the house was painted, addressed her — My dear papered, and newly furnished; the I am not come to live with you, day was fixed for our dear aunt's but to die with you.'

This uns taking possession, and even pro- expected salutation greatly agitated visions were ordered in ; but she my cousin; and our dear aunt, with never went there. God had pre- much serenity and strength, enpared for her a habitation in the couraged her to look unto the heavens,' and she was suddenly Lord, and resign her to his will. called to take possession of her In the course of conversation, she * inheritance, incorruptible and expressed a wish to see the clergy, undefiled, and that fadeth not man, saying, "I should much away.'

You shall have all the enjoy having some one to pray particulars of her last illness. She with me.' Mr. E. was sent for, had been confined to her room for and came immediately; on his about a week, with a severe cold, entering her room, she saidwhich she had taken at church, · Well, dear sir, you are come to the Sunday before Christmas-day. see me at the eleventh hour. But The day preceding her death, her so struck was he with her animated indisposition was greatly aug- appearance, and the manner in mented by a bilious attack; this which she received him, that he induced her to have recourse to replied, I think it is not so; her usual medicines. They did not surely you must be mistaken,' take the right effect, and towards With her usual suavity of manner, evening, she became so much worse heightened by Divine grace, she that she said to her servant, “I do sweetly replied, · Well, well, we not remember ever feeling so ill at will leave that;' and then adverted any time; I should not be sur- to the consoling passage in the prised if I do not get over it.' 23rd Psalm, · Yea, though I walk And yet on the morning of that through the valley of the shadow day, her medical man considered of death, I will fear no evil, obthere was no more danger to be serving, she had lately met with apprehended, than was always at- a sermon upon it, which had given tendant on her colds. She passed her much comfort, viz.—that death a quiet though sleepless night, her was a mere shadow, repeating the cough having considerably abated; words • the shadow of death.' and from some remarks which she She had been reading a sermon of made in the morning, it appeared Ebenezer Erskine's upon this text to have been a night of great peace a few days before, and some strikand consolation ; for she said," she ing passages had made a strong had sweet views of Jesus, and all and comforting impression upon was light around her.' Her niece, her mind. I have looked through Mrs. with whom she was this sermon, and cannot help copy, staying till she removed to her ing one or two sentences, own expected abode next door, I can fancy might give wings to hearing her cough had ceased, her faith, ardour to her love, and thought this was an unfavourable confidence to her hope. I will symptom, and not having seen her fear no evil, for there lies death the preceding day, (from having and the grave, slain by the death of Jesus ; and therefore I may play the Lord whilst He might be found, on the den of this lion and cocka- and to call upon Him whilst He trice, for it cannot hurt me.' was near;' adding, Pray for the • Faith views heaven and glory to Spirit, nothing without the Spirit! be near at hand, that there is Oh, watch and pray, watch and nothing but a partition-wall of pray, watch and pray.' This was clay, nothing but the breath of a precept which was continually the nostrils, between the soul and proceeding from her lips. the immediate enjoyment of God ; “In the course of that morning and therefore it cries, with Paul, she had sent for my cousin's two “ I desire to be dissolved, and to little girls, and gave them each the be with Christ, which is best of first number of the Children's all.”.

which

Friend,' a monthly publication, “After a little further animated whịch she had promised to take in conversation, the clergyman's visit for them. She continued in a terminated with prayer. My dear most joyous spirit, and was uninaunt seemed fully sensible now terruptedly engaged in conversathat a change would speedily take tion. My poor cousin, who never place; and she requested my cou- left her, could only listen with grasin Mrs. — would write immedi- titude and admiration, at the grace ately to her distant relatives, who which seemed to abound towards were altogether ignorant of her her; and says, “we could not disindisposition; saying, 'what plea- turb her, for it was plain she need. sure it would give them to see how ed no earthly comforter, and those happy and comfortable I am.' She around were themselves comforted then proposed one or two of them by her words of peace.' No one being sent for. Before seeing my near or dear to her appeared to be cousin, she had changed all her forgotten; nothing relating to them linen, which when done, she said, was too minute for her recollection; ‘now I feel quite refreshed.' Her and she desired her kind love to servant afterwards read her that each. She said, “I am not wanted sweet hymn of Toplady's, which here; I have no children to mourn begins,

my loss. To be sure, (she added)

I have many adopted ones, who Your harps, ye trembling saints;' will shed a tear for me.' Here,

you know, she was not mistaken, and this helped so much to exhil- for she was beloved by all, and arate her, that she seemed as if she filially so by many of us.

She could fly away; indeed the joy un- particularly desired “they would speakable which she manifested at be cautious in communicating her the prospect of departing, could

decease to poor dear Anne, who only be compared to the anticipa- was in such delicate health, and tion of some great pleasure attain- who would, she knew, poignantly able upon the performance of a feel her loss. You were not forjourney. Her eyes sparkled with gotten in her messages of love, but delight, and her whole countenance named with the fondest tenderness. was so brilliantly illuminated, that “Her suffering this day arose from my cousin says, “it is impossible difficult respiration. At one time, for words to describe her appear- when the almost momentary fear ance,' She wonderfully of struggling in death crossed her strengthened throughout the day, mind, the Lord's help was so grato entreat all around her to seek ciously vouchsafed, that she was.

was

enabled to say in the confidence of with her Saviour in Heaven. She faith, “The everlasting arms are had been sitting up the greater part underneath-I shall get through.' of the day in an easy chair, being unAs evening advanced, the difficulty able to lie down; and between of breathing became greater, but

nine and ten o'clock she felt rather still she was cheerful, and spoke drowsy, and composed herself for with delight of the glory that a nap; but before she closed her awaited her, and said, The shadow eyes, she extended her legs across is gone, all is light around. Also, the servant's lap, upon which they at another time, I shall soon see had been resting all day, observing my dear husband : he died in the at the same time, I think I have Lord.'

heard that this gives less trou“Here it may be remarked that ble after death. She then dropshe had never been heard so to ped off to sleep. My cousin, and speak of our dear uncle from the the servants who were anxiously time of his decease, her feelings watching her, were soon sensible being too great, even to give utter- that her breathing became graduance to his name.

ally shorter, and in a little time a * About six o'clock in the evening, faint sigh died upon

their ear,

the she wished for a pen, and putting only signal of our beloved aunt's on her glasses for the last time, having entered that rest and glory, she committed some wishes to pa- which she had been so joyfully anper, which occupied half a sheet, ticipating

ticipating the last twenty-four adding her signature very legibly. hours; for without a struggle or a It is true her hand was somewhat groan did her immortal spirit leave unsteady, yet it retained its usual its earthly habitation. character. She was visited by the “Thus indeed was realised what physician after this, to whom she faith had before enabled her in full said, “Sir, you can do me no good assurance to hope, that she should unless you can help me to glory.' get through, the everlasting arms She afterwards conversed with her being underneath.' Yours ever medical attendant on the import affectionately. ance of seeking those things which Thus ended this deeply affecting endure for ever, directing him to letter, containing intelligence so Christ for salvation, resting her little anticipated as the sudden rehead upon his shoulder, being un- moval of my long-valued and enable to speak otherwise than in a deared friend. Oh, may we not whisper. When the last cup of “ Bless the Lord for all his servants her medicine was offered to her, departed in his faith and fear, and she seemingly rejected it, as if she ask for grace so to follow their exwere anxious to be gone, and feel. amples, that with them we may ining that it would perhaps protract herit the heavenly promises.' her departure; but on being en- The tender compassion of our couraged to take it for the relief of God was indeed manifested to her, her breath, she said, taking the in his upholding, strengthening, cup, and looking to all around her, and comforting grace, which she 'I will drink, to glory, glory, had in the strictest sense of the glory,' alluding to the chorus of words found to be “her rod and the Indian Hymn, of which she her staff,” evidencing that the work was particularly fond, as if she felt of righteousness is peace, and the it would be her last refreshment on effect of righteousness quietness earth; and that her next would be and assurance for ever. And never

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