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service in said meeting ; we rejoiced in Christ to see each other. We left Chester the 9th, and got that tide down the river to Newcastle, and, after visiting those few friends there, we set sail the 12th in the morning ; the wind being high, and the weather very sharp, freezing hard, our sails were so froze, that we had hard work to get the vessel under sail. The 13th day, weighed anchor, and sailed down the bay, and the 14th we were clear of the capes. The first day following we had a good, seasonable meeting, for the worship and service of God; and, in said meeting, as I was treating of disobe. dience to parents, and disobedience to Almighty God, our great parent and heavenly father, a youth, who was a passenger in the vessel, went out hastily and abruptly, as I was shewing the ungratefulness of the first, much more of the last. When I asked the reason of his going out, he said, it was because he could not forbear crying ; and thinking I spoke so because of him, he said, he could not hear me any more.
Afterwards I understood that he was a youth who was very ungrateful and disobedient to his parents; the which I knew not of, for his mother told me, and himself also, that he went to sea on account of his health. I thought his going out so hastily was occasioned by some indisposition of body ; but it was, as he gave us to understand, through resenting ill what was spoken, and by his taking of it to himself. I have,
in like manner, sometimes observed, that divers people to have shewn a restlessness and uneasiness in public as
semblies of worship and devotion, and sometimes going out, &c. so that they have thereby exposed themselves to the notice of the people, as persons guilty of the matter publicly reprehended, or spoken against ; just as though they were the only persons in the assembly, who were guilty of the evil then taken notice of : such public restlessness is a great folly and weakness, besides so openly and publicly exposing themselves.
After we left our capes, we had divers hard gales of wind, which lasted several days. The 28th, being a first day, we had a meeting for divine worship, in which God was praised, and his holy name exalted, for his unspeak
able grace, in sending his only begotten Son, a divine light to enlighten the inhabitants of the world ; after which we had stormy weather and contrary winds for some weeks, so that our passage was tedious; and of fifteen times going to Barbadoes, I found this the most difficult; and the prospect was very discouraging of making a losing voyage, by the great expense I expected for repairing and refitting the vessel, &c. so that I be. gan to despair of accomplishing my design of discharg. ing my debts in Great-Britain, and the thoughts and consideration of losing so much of the company and conver.
. sation of my wife, relations, and friends, and spending so much precious time, which cannot be recalled, to so little purpose, lay heavy on my mind; yet, by the grace of God, my mind was supported, and my resolutions confirmed to praise the Almighty, for every dispensation of his providence
The 23d of the eleventh month we saw the island of Barbadoes; at the breaking of the day, having been from the Capes of Delaware forty days, and one night; and were truly thankful, that, at last, we, through divine fav. our, got to our desired port ; where we were lovingly ceived by our friends at Speight's-town, who were joyful at our arrival. From thence I went to Bridgetown, and so on to the governor's, in order to enter our vessel; but, staying a little too late, the governor, who was the lord Howe, was come from his house on his way to Bridgetown, with his coach and six, and his attendants ; but he seeing nie, courteously stopped his coach, and did my business as he sat therein ; and though I made an essay towards an excuse, he would not admit of it, say. ing, There is no need of any excuse.
He was indeed an extraordinary courteous man: he died soon after, much lamented, as he was much beloved.
My stay at Barbadoes this time was the longest I ever stayed, believing it to be the last time I should go there
, and that I should see them no more. My troubled some of them ; but growing in years, (being then turned of threescore), I thought it would be too hard for me to undertake such another voyage ;
fore I was at all the meetings of our friends on the island.
Here I met with Moses Aldridge, a friend from NewEngland, who came on a religious visit to friends of this island, with whom we had divers good meetings, his service in preaching the gospel being edifying and acceptable ; we were together at the marriage of Andrew Drury and Mary Lewis, after which meeting and marriage, I was ill of a fever several days, which distemper was very much among the people, of which near twenty masters of vessels, and some hundreds of people died ; and though I had been at Barbadoes many times, I never had so much illness there before ; Moses Aldridge, and several friends of us, had a large meeting at John Gibson's, where were many people, not of our persuasion, who were generally sober; but as I was recommending charity to the people, according to the doctrine of the apostle Paul, as the most excellent gift, I advised them to show it forth to all people of all professions, and also to their negroes, telling them, that some of the gentry of this island had observed to me, that the more kind they were to their slaves, they had their business the better done for it; though I observed also, that I had been at some places, where I had watched to hear some expressions that might look like charity ; but in divers houses, and some of note, I could not hear any christian-like expressions to their slaves or negroes, and that with sorrow I had seen a great deal of tyranny and cruelty, the which I dissuaded them from : this doctrine so exasperated some that they made a disturbance in the meeting; one of which persons meeting me on the king's highway, shot off his fowling-piece at me, being loaded with small shot, ten of which made marks on me, and several drew blood; by which unfriendly action, the man got a great deal of disgrace, it being highly resented by all who were acquainted with me; the president of the island looked on it as a very base action, as did also divers of the justices and the gentry, also the vestry, and several clergymen and lawyers; one of the lawyers told me, I should not be just to the country, myself, nor the man, if I did not prosecute him ; another professing the law, said, He ought to be abandoned by all mankind, if he shot at me with design ; many were for prosecuting him, for the people generally took notice of it with abhorrence ; but he sending for me, and signifying he would not do so again, I forgave him ; and I pray it may not be laid to his charge in the great day, and that he may be forgiven, he being ignorant
of the love I had and have for him and all men, even them whom I know to be mine enemies. It would be too great a scandal and reproach, to expose his name and station in the world. Some thought I did well in forgiving him, and some thought I did ill in it: but I spoke my mind to him alone freely, in which I had satisfaction and peace.
Intending my vessel for London, I made my chief mate, Ralph Loftus, master of her, not knowing whether I might proceed the voyage, it being a very sickly time: afterwards my.mate had the distemper also, but I bless God, we both recovered a good state of health.
It was this voyage, that my friends in Barbadoes puhlished a little piece I wrote at sea, which I called, “Free thoughts communicated to free thinkers ;" done in order to promote thinking on the name and works of God; which had, as far as I understand, a good acceptance among the people. The principal clergy man on the island thanked me for it, and said, “ There was need enough of it:” but I could be glad another, or a better hand, had done something of that nature, and more large. If this may be of any service, I shall be thank. ful. I had also a meeting at John Lewis's, in Joseph's par
. ish, at which were divers not of our profession, and some who were never at any of our religious meetings before ; who said they were glad they were there that day; ing a satisfactory open meeting.
After I had visited my friends, and settled as well as I could, and loaded our vessel with sugars
, for London, being willing, once more, to see my native land
, and settle my affairs there, and see my relations and friends ; on the 6th of the third month, we set sail from
Barbadoes for London, and had pleasant weather. The 16th, being the first day, we had a religious meeting for the worship of God, in which I was concerned to speak on the government of the tongue (having on board several hands, who did not sail with us before that voyage, that were much used to swearing). After that meeting, we had not so many bad words and oaths as before. I was thankful in my soul to the Lord, and blessed his Łoly name, for his goodness to us that day; and in the night, my sleep was very sweet and comfortable, being sensible of the love of God, in the visions of the night; so that I witnessed the fulfilling of the prophecy of Joel, chap. ii. 28.
The 23d, being the first day of the week, we had a meeting, in which the grace of God, that comes by Jesus Christ, was magnified, and a blessing begged for all who love and serve God, throughout the world, by sea and land; also a tender petition was put up to Al. mighty God, that as he was graciously pleased to look down on those eight persons in Noah's ark, so he would please to look upon us in our vessel ; and that as by his divine providence, they safely landed on the earth, so we, if it were his will, might safely land at our desired port, yet not that our wills, but his will might be done : which supplication was put up with great submission, Both day and night I often sought the Lord, and was much alone in this voyage. I read the Old and New Testament almost through, and much of it divers times over; my time being mostly taken up in reading, writing, and meditating, in which, at times, my heart would be broken into tenderness, and I was humbly thankful to God, that my heart was not hard; he having promised to visit the contrite ones; the which he sometimes fulfilled, to my unspeakable satisfaction; glory to his holy name forever. My heart was also thankful that God was pleased to visit me in my watery travels and troubles, and in my separation from my family and friends, which are much nearer, and more valuable to me than all riches, and a great cross to my natural inclination to part with.