CHAPTER XIV.

Memoranda of Last Labors.- Last Sermons. - Death. Mrs. Hawes: her Death.

HE brief memoranda of passing events resumed

THE

by Dr. Hawes at this period were continued to the close of his labors and his life. June 1, 1864, he writes, "It is not well to omit a notice of what I do from day to day: I begin anew to attend to this duty.

“13th.—Unwell. Ministers' meeting at my study. I do wish it could be more spiritual.

"Aug. 15. Things still unsettled and unpleasant in the First Church. Growing better, I trust.

"21st. Preached at the South Church. A good time. Visited last week a number of families: on the whole, happy in doing so. Some seem different from what they formerly did; but it is my purpose to know no man after the flesh, but to treat all as if nothing had happened to mar friendship or interrupt intercourse. May God guide and help me to be and do just what is right and pleasing in his sight! then I shall be safe and happy.

"Feb. 9.-At home. Unwell, but attended church Heard Rev. Mr. Gould, good preacher; a seri

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ous, earnest man, I should judge. I baptized, by request of the parents, four children: was happy in doing so.

"Nov. 24.- Thanksgiving. Preached at Vernon. A very pleasant occasion. Go there to-morrow again. So I am constantly employed, as I wish to be; and I am frequently comforted by friends where I preach, who sometimes say, 'We think you are doing more good in going round to visit the churches than if you had been retained in your place in Hartford.' So let it be, and I am content.

"28th. Attended to-day the funeral of Prof. Silliman at New Haven. President Woolsey delivered an address on the occasion, an excellent picture of his noble character, and a fine tribute to his great excellence as a man, a scholar, a Christian, an officer in the college. All the services were appropriate and good. So'friend after friend departs.' Heaven grows richer, and earth poorer, as those I have known and loved here ascend to the home prepared for them above.

Good day.

"Dec. 7.- Last Sabbath at Vernon. Congregation large, serious. Spent the night with my dear friend and brother, Rev. L. Hyde, who brought me home next morning.

"Monday, 11th. Spent Sabbath at Bristol. Preached for Rev. Mr. Griggs. I find my strength rather failing me under two sermons a day. My time of action, I am increasingly sensible, is nearly God prepare me for the time when I shall be laid aside, if life is prolonged; above all, prepare me to die in his own time!

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"15th. Yesterday Rev. Mr. Gould was installed pastor of the church I served so long, and love so earnestly still. Examination entirely satisfactory intelligent; modest; decided on all the great doctrines which I have believed and preached during all my ministry. I think well of Mr. Gould, and hope good may come from his ministry. My main fear respects his health. If this fails, or if present intimations are carried out, great changes will be effected in the services of the Sabbath in this old church; and this will lead to changes in our other churches. There will be but one sermon on the Sabbath, with Sabbath school and prayer-meeting. The change, I know, must be deeply injurious in the final result.

"21st.-To-day attended the funeral of Hon. Seth Terry, at the South Church. Died after a brief and not painful sickness, aged eighty-five. Dr. Spring delivered an address. I made a few remarks, and offered the prayer. A decidedly Christian man. A faithful friend to me all the time I have been in Hartford.

"Jan. 15, 1865. - Sabbath at Vernon. Very cold. Audience not large; but, on the whole, a good day. Last Friday evening, at the annual meeting of the society, the twelve hundred dollars, my original salary, was voted me: only one voice, I am told, raised against it. I mean, by the use I make of what they have voted me, to show them that I have no intention to grow rich at their ccst.

"Oct. 1. Sabbath at home. Visited Sabbath

school. Opened with prayer and address; preached

at South Church in the morning; assisted Mr. Gould in the sacrament at the First Church; visited the African Sabbath School and spoke in the afternoon; attended the meeting in the hall, State Street, Sabbath evening; present at the young men's prayermeeting in church-room; said a few words; heard Rev. Mr. Spaulding preach in the evening at South Church. Too much for one day.

"17th.-Sabbath at New Haven. Preached in college chapel in the morning. Spent the week preceding, and the Monday and Tuesday following, in attending the examination."

"NEW HAVEN, Dec. 15, 1865.

"My dear Wife, -It may perhaps add some interest to this note to tell you that I am writing it in Brother Fitch's study. I find them both well; and both send much love.

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"If you have any occasion to write me, you can direct to New-Haven House. Do not write me any bad news; for I am in no state to bear it, quite well. Yet do not report me as sick; for I am not: I am only a little low-spirited. God help me, and help us both quietly to the end of our journey! Our trust must be more and more in him, and less in man and in all things earthly. Peace be with you! I suppose you feel lonely when I am absent; and so do I: but we must make the best of it. Remember me to Ann; and believe me ever yours in the best of bonds, "J. HAWES."

"Jan. 14, 1866.- Sabbath at Plymouth. Scenes

of the past rose sadly to my mind, yet not unmingled with gratitude and praise. He has done his work on earth, and gone to his home and his reward.

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Aug. 5. Spent the Sabbath at Coventry with my old and good friend, Dr. Calhoun. An interesting visit both of us near the close. I found him infirm, unable to articulate so as to be understood without great difficulty, yet perfectly cheerful, and full of good hope.

"March 10, 1867. At home in my house all day. Unwell with a severe cold. It is hard to be shut up, and do nothing. O Lord! prepare me for the time, not distant if life is continued, when I must be laid aside as worthless. Death is preferable. Thy will be done!

"April 7. — At Gilead. A good Sabbath. Spent the week preceding at New Haven in the collegeexaminations.

"14th. Gilead. A good Sabbath.

"21st. Gilead.

Unwell with a cold.

Sacramental. A good Sab

"19th. — Wallingford, with Rev. Mr. Gilbert. A good day.

"26th. Gilead. Unwell with a cold. Rainy day."

On the following Sabbath, June 2, Dr. Ilawes was again at Gilead, though still suffering from his cold.