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try was in the best sense of the judge of the supreme court; iv term noble, we feel it to be our which high and responsible office duty to enter into a minute, though he continued, with much reputabrief, detail of the same. The tion and universal esteem, until first of the family, the parent his death, in December, 1775. stock from whom all the Living- From her father's and her husstones in this country descended, band's standing in society, Mrs. was Robert, the son of the cele - Livingston moved in the highest brated John Livingstone, a minis-circles of the polite, the great and ter of the Church of Scotland, gay world, which she graced by whose name is still precious in her personal endowments and acthe Churches, and peculiarly required accomplishments. membered for the memorable sessing a high relish for the ensermon which he preached at the joyments which this world afKirk of Shots, in Scotland, in the forded her, she partook of them year 1630, when above 500 souls with great satisfaction, until she were converted unto God. This was made the subject of redeemtruly great and good man, under ing love, and the recipient of the shameless and profligate per- heavenly blessings. secution of Charles II. was ba- In the year 1764 the Rev. Dr. nished from Great Britain, and A. Laidlie came to minister in the went over to Rotterdam, in Hol- Reformed Dutch Church in the land, where he died. After his city of New-York. His preachdeath, his son, just mentioned, ing from the first was highly hoemigrated to this state, in what noured and blessed to many, and year, however, we are not able to among the rest to Mrs. Livingstate. He had here three sons.ston. What were her earliest To Philip, the eldest, he be-exercises of mind; in what partiqueathed what is called the Upper cular manner her attention was Manor of Livingston. To Robert, first awakened to her own state ; his second son, the Lower Manor. at what time she was made a Gilbert, his third son, the grand- willing subject of the Prince of father of the Rev. Dr. Livingston, Peace; or when she made a pubwas a lawyer, and bad no part of lic profession of Christ in the orthe Manor. Robert, the second didance of the Lord's Supper, son, had only one child, the be- cannot now be ascertained. In her fore-mentioned Robert R. Living. diary she does not appear to have ston, the husband of Col. Beek- been so anxious to note the date man's only child. By this mar- of these events, as to describe the riage of a sole heir and heiress, state of her mind after she had great wealth, respectability, and entered on the Christian course. political influence were concen- From her conversion unto God trated in one family.
she walked in newness of life; Miss Beekman's husband was for, in the words of a dear friend, polite and accomplished in his " she now saw that she had a manners, fond of study, and al- new Master to serve, new friends though he never professed the with whom to associate, and new law, he was known to be so deep- duties to perform. In these purly versed in it, and of such strict suits, her pleasure increased in integrity, that he was made al proportion to her attainments.
She soon became conspicuous and mote its interest, and assisted
Grace taught her unbounded and walked humbly with her
health and spirits, walked someShe understood the doctrines of time in her garden ; but before grace, which she believed with nine at night was called to the the heart, and ably defended them enjoyment of that rest which reagainst the opposition and ob- maineth for the people of God. jections of many by whom she The nature of her complaint prewas surrounded. Strong in the vented her from saying any thing faith, she rested on the imputed -nor was it necessary. Her righteousness of her blessed Je-life, as a daughter, wife, and mosus, as the only basis of her justi- ther, under the direction of the fication, and was never ashamed Spirit of God, since she had openof Christ, his people, or his cause. ly avowed Christ to be her all, Cordially attached to the Re- was enough. formed Dutch Church, of wbich Her Diary begins with May 19, she lived and died a worthy mem- in the year 1766, two years after ber, she exerted herself to pro- Dr. Laidlie's arrival in New York,
and plainly shows that at that those had to whom the Lord manifested time she was no novice in the himself. Many characters by which
the bearers might know if they were divine life.
God's people--and advice given tbem
in the application. Happy, my soul, wilt « May 19, 1766. Awoke this morning thoa be if included in the blessed numwith scattered thoughts ; though, I bless ber. Gracious Lord, manifest thyself to God, I was, some time after, enabled to my soul; remove every obstacle; show lift up my heart to the Lord, and was thy power in calling me home to thee; assisted.' o that it would please God subdue in me more and more the power to make me devote my first thoughts to of sin. O for the blessed privilege of him. My morning prayer was sweet. adoption, sanctification.
Lord Jesus, Went to Church; heard an excellent show forth the riches of free grace in discourse on John'xiv. 26. Some marks the redeniption of one so altogether unlaid down for self-examination; which, worthy. To thee do I give up my whole to the praise of free grace, I could say soul, heart, and faculties. Keep me by I had experienced, and was very com- thy almighty power. Amen. And as fortable to my soul. The prayer was thou, in thy providence, callest me away delightful. O my God! I bless thy from this place, O be thou ever with holy name for thy amazing love to me, me; feed my soul fron thine own hand; the most unworihy of thy creatures. let not my heart be confined to outward When I returned home I sought the ordinances, but teach me to wait, and Lord in prayer, in which I found my cast myself or thee with all my burheart drawn out after greater degrees of dens; and do thou, my blessed Jesus, holiness. O my adored Jesus, perfect wash away all my sins, and clothe me thine owo work, and may I be taught with salvation. of the Holy Spirit. Give thy blessing “ March 1st to the 18th. () what to thy word tbis afternoon and evening. abundant cause for praise and thanks to O to be made more and more thine, the blessed Author of all my mercies. my Jesus, my Lord, my life, my all. O God, who is like thee, wonderful, Blessed be thy name, that thou conde. glorious, and almighty, in giving me, scendest to be my Advocate with the the most unworthy, the assistance of thy Father, and that ihy precious blood is holy, ever-blessed Spirit, to draw me my passport, and will through grace unto thyself, my Lord and my God. admit me to thy blissful presence." How shall I begin the glorious theme of
praise? How hast thou drawn out my We select the following addi- whole soul after thee, exciting my love, Lional passages from her Diary, to making it ardent and unutterable! My
desires after thee and thy grace are enable the reader to judge more such as convince me it must be the fully of the nature of her religion. work of thy blessed Spirit. My heart
could never dictate such holy and ar“ Lord's day, June. I am still in dent love as I find there. May 1, O my New-York, contrary to my expecta- Lord, take this as an earnest of stiil tions, and have the privilege of hearing greater blessings that thou hast laid up the word preached again. Begged the for me in Jesus, my covenant bead; Lord in secret to bless his gospel to me, that thou wilt upite me in an indissolufor I have pot felt that love, that evergy, ble union with him who is the Lord my I have sometimes experienced. And righteousness; and in thine own time though this was a most powerful sermou, give me the foretaste of that exquisite I bave brought but little home. Dear bliss thou hast laid up for thine own. Lord, revive thy work in the midst of What shall I render unto thee, thou glothe years in the midst of the years rious Author of those precious hopes ? make known.
O for still clearer views of thy blessed “ The conclusion of the last sermon self, that my whole soul may be full of was, that the work of the Lord might thee, my Jesus, my all, and as far congo on in the hearts of bis people; that formed to thy image as my frame can the Lord will preserve his own, be they admit of, being holy as thou art holy. where they will. In what manner the " This has been a most sweet week to Lord makes himself known to his own. my soul. What precious times have I Then was shown what great privileges experienced in prayer. How bas my
heart been drawn out after boliness and Lord God Almighty, by all thy re. nearness to God.
but especially by me, the most “ This day, March 18th, 1768, has unworthy. Accept, o ever-blessed been a blessed day. What sweet melt- Lord, thy poor creature, who bath in ings of soul under a sense of God's thy strength devoted herself to thee. goodness, mercy, and love to me. O Bút o, how many backslidings ! if thou the blessed hope of being for ever with heal me, as I humbly trust thou wilt, the Lord. If here, in this wilderness, then in thy power and might I shall run in this body of flesh, my blessed Lord thy race with joy. To thee do I give gives a trausient view of his glory, in up all that thou hast given me, husband, which there is such happiness, what children, parents, friends, estate, time, must a full discovery give in heaven? talents, all to be used for thy glory. Although the glorious majesty caypot Let nothing in this world be too dear be fully knowo even there, yet so to be parted with, when the cause and much will be manifested as will fill the glory or will of God calls for it. Help happy spirit with unspeakable bliss. me, o blessed Jesus, my Redeemer, to Glory, glory be to the sovereign Jeho- be true to thee; let thy strength be vah, for the precious hope that I am sufficient for me, and thy continual inthine.
Auence, thou blessed Spirit of all grace, “ January, 1768. Glory be to to lead, govern, and support thy weak thee, thou God of my life, who spared creature, in herself altogether unable to and preserved thy unprofitable ser- think a good thought. Give me freevant to this hour. O how power- dom of access to thec, as my Father, fully bast thou made known thyself brought nigh by the Lord Christ. as a God of mercy and grace in my Amen, and amen. behalf. How hast thou defeated the " January 28th. Awoke this morning designs of those who were unfriendly with sweet thoughts of my God, and his
precious dealings with my soul; recol“Thy bounty makes my cup of bless-lected the many mercies that have been ings to overflow tenporally, and may I showed me. The faithfulness, truth, say spiritually. I humbly trust I may; and goodness I have experienced, filled I hope I have not this world for my my heart with wonder, love, and joy. portion. Nomif that or any thing be o how sweet to the longing soul, when sides thee come in competition, I would the blessed Spirit shines in and dispels spurn the gilded toy, were it all crea- the clouds of darkness, doubts, and untion, with the contempt it merits. Give belief. Blessed be thy name, Lord of me thy blessed self, that will satisfy - my life, for this glimpse of thy mercy, nothing else can.
thy love to me, the chief of sinners. But “ Saturday, January - Went to how transient the view! How soon Church. Heard a preparation sermon lost! O Lord of my life, set me free When I came home I humbled myself from bondage, and place me in the globefore the Lord, pleading for mercy and rious liberty of thy redeemed ; let me grace. And O my soul, never forget know no fear, but the loss of thy fathe goodness of thy God, who certainly vour; strengthen my faith ; increase is a prayer-hearing, faithful, and ever- my love, and let me live under a sweet loving Father in Christ Jesus (the foun- sense of thy grace to my soul. dation of all my hope.) He bath, I
Still the same cause for humbly trast, revived his own work in thankfulness and praise : my Lord conmy soul; strengthening my faith, io-tinves his goodness to me, the most uucreasing my love, and giving are strong worthy. and ardent desires after himself, the “ 30th. This morning was enabled to fountain of all good. The Lord would lift my heart to God in prayer. I hope not excite desires in my soul that he I read his word with improvement and would not ful6l; the mouth of truth delight. Aster breakfast read Witsius hath said, Blessed are they that hunger on Justification with great pleasure, and thirst after righteousness, for they and through the day I hope was emshall be filled on this promise I rest. ployed in thinking of the goodness of lle is faithful, who hath promised, able, my Great Shepherd. Meditation in the being Almighty, and willing, having evening very comfortable. In self-esgiven me himself. Glory, eternal praise amination found cause for great thankbe given to thee, O eternal, ever-blessed fulness for wbat the Lord had done fos
me, the most unworthy. O for a Sab- my soul? Hope still in God, who is bath's blessing on the morrow.
thy strength and salvation. What “31st. Surely God's people may set though temptations from within or withto their seal that he is true and a prayer- out may, for the trial of tby faith and hearing God. He has given me a Sab- patience, be permitted to harass and in. bath's blessing.
vade thy peace, still remember that the “ Clermont, January, 1769. Never, same is kind the great Captain of thy O my soul, forget the precious mani- salvation bath encountered. Although festations of God's love to thee on this without siu, yet be was tempted, that occasion. Saturday beard the prepara. he might be a faithful High Priest, tion sermion, and felt much of the divine sympathizing with bis poor weak folpresence on my way from Church. On lowers. Build not, my soul, on the sandy Sunday morning all was dead and in- foundation of self-righteousness; but sensible; went to Church under dejec- endeavour to feel more of thy emptiness, tion of spirit. Sitting down at the ta- and come to the fountain of life, to be ble of my adorable Redeemer, my filled out of his fuluess. Blessed Jesus, whole heart was taken up iu prayer, I thank thee, that all, all is in thee that when these words were brought with thise handmaiden needs. I thank thee, power to my soul, What is thy petition, holy blessed Spirit, for opening my and what is thy request? my heart an- eyes, for making me the subject of thy swered, Lord, that I may be thine. My gracious influences, and working faith whole heart and all that I am was given in ray heart, and making me willing in up to my precious Lord. But glory the day of thy power. Bless the Lord, and praise I am bound to render to God. O my soul, for ever and ever. Amen. His goodness, truth, love, and condescension to his unworthy creature “ Jobn x. 28. I give unto them eterwere such as I hope always to remember nal life, and they shall never perish, with gratitude and love. Returning neither sball any pluck them out of my home from Church, the blessed Lord band. was pleased to manifest himself to my « Our blessed Lord, in the preceding soul with much power, and savoured me verse says, that his sheep hear bis with a foretaste, I think I may call it, voice, and be knows them, and they of the happiness his saints in heaven follow him, and he will give them comenjoy; that from this view my soul was plete bappiness. Neither the world, impatient to be gone. Joyfully would nor all its allurements, temptations, I have left my body, and taken my cares, or afflictions, shall deprive them flight to glory.' Twice on the road was of that portion which their heavenly I thus favoured. Why me, Lord!--eren Father has laid up for them. What a 80, Father, for thus it pleased thee to coufortable promise is this, made by answer my petitions and requests made the adorable Redeemer, who is faithat thy table. What shall i render to fulness and truth invariable. • They my God for all his astonishing mercy to shall never perish;' not only be kept my soul,
from evil, but enjoy everlasting felicity.
Although the evil spirit, as prince of “O my soul, rejoice in the God of thy the world, may put in practice all those salvatiou. The ever-blessed Father has arts to allure, by which so many fall given his equal Son as thy life. He away, which suit our corrupt vature, hath made a full, a complete expiation and fall in with the bias of our inclinafor all thy great and accumulated sins, tious, still be, nor any other power shall priginal as well as actual transgressions, ever pluck them out of our heavenly for infirmities, weaknesses, and number- Father's hand. Feed, my soul, on this less other srailties. Like as a father gracious promise ; let it support thee pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth through life', amidst every affliction, them that fear him. 'For the mountains trial, and temptation; that the Lord shall depart, the hills be removed, but reigns; that he bas disposed thee to my loving-kindness shall remain.' What follow bim, who is thy good Shepherd; more stable than the mountains? Yet that he whom thou servest is God, and they, durable as they are, sball be re- none shall ever pluck thee out of his moved, before my loving-kiudness shall band. be withdrawn, or my covenant be dis- “ July 12th. Sabbath day. But Ah! solved. Why restless, why cast down, I how silent! No Church, to hear the