when or where we pleased-eating with or without washing and that, in general, it was a life of carelessness with us."

Toward the middle of the month of April, another summons, similar to that which had carried Mr. Martyn to Buxar, called him from his studies and labours at Dinapore, to Monghir. It was not long before he undertook this expedition, that we find him thus expressing himself, after an examination into the state of his heart before God. "My mind much as usual, not tried by any violent assault of sin or Satan, but the daily cause of grief and shame, and indeed the root of all sin is forgetfulness of God. I perceive not in what state I have been till I come to pray." "Enjoyed a greater stability of faith in the divine Redeemer. May he make his servant steady, brave, and vigilant in his service!" "Satan assaults me in various ways: some of his darts, respecting the person of my Lord, were dreadfully severe but he triumphed not a moment: I am taught to see what would become of me if God should withdraw his strong hand. Is there any depth into which Satan would not plunge me?"

"My soul is sometimes tried with the abounding of iniquity, and wounded by infidel thoughts. But my Redeemer is risen triumphant, and will not suffer his feeble servant to be tempted above that I am able to bear.""If there is one thing that refreshes my soul above all other things, it is, that I shall behold the Redeemer gloriously triumphant at the winding up of all things. O thou injured Sovereign, how long dost thou bear this ingratitude from wicked mankind!"

"Still permitted to find sweet refuge in the presence of my Lord from infidelity, and the proud world, and the vanities of time."

"In prayer had an affecting sense of my shameful ingratitude. Had I behaved thus to an earthly benefactor, showing so little regard for his company, and his approbation, how should I abhor myself, and be abhorred by all: O what a God is our God! How astonishingly rich in grace, bearing all with unceasing

patience, and doing nothing but crowning his sinful creature with loving kindness and tender mercies."

"This is the day I left Cambridge. My thoughts frequently recurred with many tender recollections to that seat of my beloved brethren, and I again wandered in spirit among the trees on the banks of the Cam."

66

Employed in writing a sermon and translating: but heavenly things become less familiar to my mind whilst I am so employed without intermission. Yet the whole desire of my heart is towards spiritual enjoyment. O when shall body, soul, and spirit be all duly employed for God!"

"Dull and pooras my miserable soul is, and thinking very little about heaven, yet for ought else that is in the world, existence is scarcely worth having. The world seems as empty as air."

On the 18th of April, Mr. Martyn commenced his voyage of nearly a hundred miles to Monghir;-the following is an extract from his Journal during the eight days which were consumed, in leaving his station to marry a couple, and returning afterward to Dinapore.

"After finishing the correction of the Parables, I left Dinapore to go to Monghir-spent the evening at Patna, with Mr. ***, talking on literary subjects: but my soul was overwhelmed with a sense of my guilt in not striving to lead the conversation to something that might be for his spiritual good. My general backwardness to speak on spiritual subjects before the unconverted, made me groan in spirit at such unfeelingness and unbelief. May the remembrance of what I am made to suffer for these neglects be one reason for greater zeal, and love, in the time to come."

April 19th." A melancholy Lord's day! in the morning, at the appointed hour, I found some solemnity and tenderness: the whole desire of my soul seemed to be, that all the Ministers in India might be eminently holy, and that there might be no remains of that levity, or indolence in any of as, which I found in

myself. The rest of the day passed heavily; for a hurricane of hot wind fastened us on a sand-bank, for twelve hours; when the dust was suffocating, and the heat increased the sickness, which was produced by the tossing of the boat, though she was aground, and I frequently fell asleep over my work. However the more I felt tempted to impatience and unhappiness, the more the Lord helped me to strive against it, and to look at the fulness of Jesus Christ. Several hymns, particularly

'There is a fountain filled with blood,'

were very sweet to me. After all the acquisitions of human science, what is there to be compared to the knowledge of Christ, and him crucified !-Read much of the Scripture history of Saul, and the predictions in the latter end of the Revelations. Read also Marshall on Sanctification, Gibert's Sermons, and Thomas á Kempis."

April 20." A day very little better. I could scarcely keep myself alive, and was much tried by evil temper. Employed in writing to ***, and Mr. ***, but all I did was without energy; the long-wishedfor night came at last, and my feeble body found rest and restoration in sleep."

April 21.-" Again the love and mercy of the Lord restored me to health and spirits. Began to write a sermon on walking in Christ, and found my soul benefited by meditation on the subject. In the afternoon went on with translations. Arrived at sun-set at

Monghir."

April 22.-"Spent the day at ***'s, found two or three opportunities to speak to him about his soul. *** threw out some infidel sentiments, which gave me an opportunity of speaking. But to none of the rest was I able to say any thing. Alas! in what a state are mankind every where-living without God in the world. Married *** to *** * 29

April 23.--" After baptizing a child of * * *, I left Monghir, and got on twenty-three miles to Dinapore.

1

very sorrowful in mind, both from the recollection of having done nothing for the perishing souls I have been among, and from finding myself so unqualified to write on a spiritual subject, which I had undertaken. Alas! the ignorance and carnality of my miserable soul! how contemptible must it be in the sight of God!""

April 23. Still cast down at my utter inability to write any thing profitable on this subject, and at my execrable pride and ease of heart. O that I could weep with shame and sorrow in the dust, for my wickedness and folly! Yet thanks are due to the Lord for showing me in this way, how much my heart has been neglected of late. I see by this, how great are the temptations of a Missionary to neglect his own soul. Apparently outwardly employed for God, my heart has been growing more hard and proud. Let me be taught, that the first great business on earth is the sanctification of my own soul; so shall I be rendered more capable also of performing the duties of the ministry, whether among the Europeans or Heathen, in a holy and solemn manner. O how I detest that levity to which I am so subject!-How cruel and unfeeling it is!-God is witness, that I would rather, from this day forward, weep day and night for the danger of immortal souls. But my wickedness seems to take such hold of me, that I cannot escape, and my only refuge is to commit my soul, with all its corruption, into the hands of Christ, to be sanctified and saved by the Almighty power of grace. For what can I do with myself? my heart is so thoroughly corrupt that I cannot keep myself one moment from sin.-Finished the Koran to-day, and considered with myself why I rejected it as an imposition, and the reasons appeared clear and convincing."

"The budgerow struck with such violence against a sand-bank, that a poor Mahometan boy, falling with all the rest, broke his arm. We did all we could, but the cries of the poor boy went through my heart. At

night a tremendous North-wester came on, but the Lord kept us in safety."

April 25.--" Morning employed with little success on the same subject. I still find it too spiritual for my carnal heart. My mind distressed with doubts, whether I should make the people observe the Sabbath, by causing them to lie by; but considering, that they would not think it a favour, but, on the contrary, a vexation-that they could not sanctify it, and that I had not given the Manghee previous notice before setting out, I resolved to go on; though I felt by no means easy, and before setting out again, I hope to make up my mind satisfactorily on the subject."

April 26." In prayer, at the appointed hour, 1 felt solemnity of mind, and an earnest desire, that the Lord would pour out a double portion of his Spirit upon us his Ministers in India; that every one of us may be eminent in holiness and ministerial gifts. If I were to judge from myself, I should fear God had forsaken his Church; for I am most awfully deficient in the knowledge and experience requisite for a Minister-but, my dear brother Corrie, blessed be God, is a man of a better spirit :-may he grow more and more in grace, and continue to be an example to us! Passed the day in reading and prayer, such as my prayers are. My soul struggled with corruption, yet I found the merit and grace of Jesus all sufficient, and all supporting. Though my guilt seemed like mountains, I considered it as no reason for departing from Christ, but rather of clinging to him more closely. Thus I got through the day, cast down, but not destroyed. The account of David's fall affected me more tenderly than ever it did, and I could not help weeping over the fall of that man of God. Began Scott's Essays, and was surprised indeed at the originality and vigour of the sentiments and language. At night arrived at Patna."

April 27.-"Left Patna and arrived at Dinapore. The concourse of people in that great city was a solemn admonition to me to be diligent in study and