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account of our blessed Redeemer's raising Lazarus from the dead.

5. My nephew W. P. D. assisted me in the penmanship of a sympathetic epistle to my esteemed friend S. R. on account of the decease of her companion Mary Gurney; a loss justly to be deplored by the church militant in general, and her in particular. Our deceased friend was one of them concerning whom the Spirit formerly declared, “ that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come;" for whom there is no cause to sorrow, as those who are without hope; inasmuch as they have an everlasting interest in the hope of their glory, and are uninterruptedly entered into that rest, which reinains for the people of God. In the evening my mind was in a placid state, feeling forgiveness for others, with some hope of being forgiven myself.

6. This day I was measurably preserved under some sense of “the blood of sprinkling, that speaketh better things than that of Abel ;" expiating for sin, and purging from it. In the evening, contemplating on the various divisions of professed Christians, their attachment to their own principles and practices, and prejudices against others; a faithful testimony to Him, who " teacheth the way

of God truly," was renewed in my remembrance with life and freshness, viz. “ To whom shall we go? for Thou” only, “hast the words of eternal life.'

8. This week, I hope some increase has been

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attained in the forgiveness of such, by whom I may have supposed myself evilly entreated ; a disposition incumbent on those, who themselves, are " in jeopardy every hour," and who stand in need of forgiveness from the Judge of men and angels; it having been declared by the lip of Truth, that if we forgive not men their trespasses, our heavenly Father will not forgive us our trespasses.

9. Some things in my conduct are now likely to be exposed to those who are already prejudiced against me: being for a short time dismayed at the unpleasing prospect, these words were with power brought to my remembrance, viz. but “I say unto you, my friends, be not afraid of them that kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do, but I will forewarn you whom you shall fear: fear Him, which after he hath killed, hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, fear Him." We ought indeed to walk as becomes the gospel, and to “shew out of a good conversation our works with meekness of wisdom :" but the approbation of our fellow men, their praise, or their censure is lighter than chaff, when placed in the balance with those mercies, forgivenesses, and righteousnesses, which are in Christ Jesus.

II. In the evening, the following passages in the second Lecture of the 4th volume of Hunter's Sacred Biography, seemed attended with light and unction, viz. - But is it possible to remove from God an instant of time, a hair's breadth of space ? No: God is about our path, and our bed, watching our going out and coming in, our lying down and rising up. God is in this place; and, were our eyes opened, we should even now behold his face clothed with the frowns of just displeasure, or beaming with the smiles of paternal love. As the awfulness and solemnity of the prophet's condition are not peculiar to him, and to that important occasion, so neither are the privileges which he enjoyed, nor the communion to which he was admitted. Christian, you have but to retire into your closet, and to shut the door after you, and you are immediately on the top of a higher mountain than Moses climbed ; and near to God, as he was in the most precious moments of the most intimate communication. Alone, or in company, we have access at all times to the throne of grace ; and we have what gave him safety and confidence in drawing nigh unto God, an advocate with the Father, a great High Priest, a Mediator betwixt God and us.'

14. Al:hough from my youth up to the present day, I have been proved at Massah, and striven with, as at the waters of Meribah; yet have I not sanctified the Lord, neither in spirit nor practice, so fully as I ought to have done. Nevertheless, my wife reading in the evening Hunter's Lecture concerning the death of Aaron, I was favored with some distant views towards that land which is on the other side of Jordan."

15. During the preceding week, I hope at times some victory has been experienced, but a great shortness in that peace and perfection which is by Christ Jesus, has also attended.

16. In the evening my wife read some pious meditations and addresses to the Supreme Being ; I was more easy in body and placid in mind, than on the preceding evening.

17. Respecting the spirit of prayer, Perdidi Diem. Lord, let thy mercy be great, and pardon!


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