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mits me to bring all my burdens, infirmities and cares, and cast them on him! If I am indeed devoted to his glory, and prefer his service above every other employment, ought I not to feel most happy in his hands, and under his direction, who hest knows in what way, and by what means, this shall be brought about?

"I hoped this week to have awaked up to greater engagedness in my solemn approaches to God; but how I shall be carried through the various important duties. of it I know not yet I find a pleasure in feeling all weakness, and as such dropping into the arms of Omnipotence clothed with every possible perfection; and so be disposed of in the wisest and best manner, to answer the most noble and important ends, by him with whom there is not any thing too hard. I do feel, at present, as if I had no other cause or interest, but to be used and disposed of for God; and therefore do rejoice that he is what he is, and that "Dominion is with him." O, sir, I am sure such an immense Spirit, such an amiable, glorious Being, who was last Sabbath held up to view, is infinitely worthy of the eternal joy and triumph of all his creatures."

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" A POOR, mean, sinful soul aspires and stretches after more exalted conceptions of the divine Redeemer, and his glorious kingdom. But O! my conceptions of these are so low! I am so brutish in my knowledge, that I cannot but wish the prison walls were pulled down. I feel myself the smallest atom in creation, and this loaded with an infinite weight of guilt and odiousness, drawing down to an eternal hell. How must that grace, that wisdom, that mercy be built up for ever, which redeems and fixes in his eternal kingdom such an one! And perhaps I must live to try the power, the wisdom and all-sufficiency, of this incomparable, divine Redeemer. This I have done, and feel I am doing every moment. And O what pleasure does it give to think how transcendently glorious this "tried stone" will appear, when all the myriads of the redeemed, in all the

peculiar circumstances in which his sufficiency has been tried, shall be exhibited !

"My attention has been a little called up to the inex- tricable darkness, difficulties and dangers, which lie continually in our way, through which no wisdom but that which is infinite can guide us, nor power short of omnipotent can deliver. When I am a little awake, I see every day, every moment big with such infinite importance to the church of God, and every individual member, as at once bankrupts and ruins every sufficiency and helper, but our exalted, all-sufficient Redeemer, pronounces them physicians of no value, broken cisterns, and places the governinent on his shoulders, and constrains to fly to the shadow of his wings for protection. And O how sweet is that rest wherewith he causes the weary to rest!"

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"GOD has of late been calling up my attention to solemn and tender scenes. I have felt the ties of nature, and I hope the tender bonds of christian affection, to one of the best of mothers, a member of Christ, in pain and distress, under great infirmities to a very sensible degree: under which the infinitely condescending Jehovah has set himself before me, as so infinitely fit to govern, and worthy to be submitted to, yea, rejoiced in, in every dispensation, that I have been constrained to say, surely there needs no more to make all heaven and earth rejoice, than to know that this God reigns. O where can there be any true pleasure, but in a heart wholly disposed to close in with every exhibition that Jehovah makes of himself, as well in the judgments of his hands, as the laws of his mouth? O what a fountain of inexpressible pleasure overflows and sweetens the bitterest waters of Marah, in that single sentence, It is the Lord, the Lord!

"But, here I pause-while tears of admiration and joy are my highest expression! Fain would I lisp his praises! Fainwould I speak of his glories! But Q ! I

find I do not feel what I ought; nor can I express what I feel. When shall my soul be unfettered! When shall the heart of the rash understand! When shall the stammerer speak plain! O when shall my whole sout unite in the most perfect manner, strongest degree and universal extent, to every exhibition of the unbounded, infinite, glorious rectitude and perfection of Jehovah's nature and government! But instead of this, is it possible that I shall again take back what I have said? God has of late made me repeatedly confess that he doth all things well, and, as it were, crowd all things into his hands, professing my hearty subjection to him, and his government. I have been calling him Lord and King; owning his infinite right and fitness to govern; recounting his mighty deeds; proclaiming his sovereign authority; exclaiming against every degree of opposition to him, and his government; judging and condemning to utter destruction all his implacable enemies. And O, now, how infinitely aggravated must my guilt be, if, on trial, I do in the least degree retract, or take back what I have said! But such a heart I know I have in me: and, therefore, if after all I should perish, out of my own mouth I am condemned: and if saved, sovereign grace shall have all the glory. O how infinitely wise and good this constitution! How rich, how free the grace that comes to sinners through Jesus Christ."

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"GREAT is the wisdom of our divine Leader. He knows what he is about, what he designs to bring to pass by the peculiar exercises which he enables his people to put forth; and brings them into those circumstances that are best suited to excite them. Thus does he carry on his glorious designs. Thus is he preparing us for the event. O how sweet to feel ourselves, and all creatures and things, in his wise and powerful hands, devoted to his good pleasure, led on to the most glorious and important end. In this view I am saying, let the Lord do with me as seemeth him good; yea, with all

things and creatures. His glory is secured; Zion is is safe and more, it shall be raised to the highest perfection. And though we know not what shall prosper under our hands; yet being in his hand, we may not say, "There is nothing that can be done." Surely God has done and is doing great things. O that his dear people were all awake! Methinks there is nothing wanting but this to bring forth a most glorious victory over the powers of darkness. Then should one chase a thousand, and put ten thousand to flight."

SECTION V.

Containing Observations on the foregoing Life and Writings.

I. THESE taken together, afford a strong and striking evidence of the truth and excellence of christianity. If christianity, and the Bible in which it is revealed and instituted, were not a divine revelation from heaven, but a mere fable and falsehood, it would be impossible that such an effect should be produced by it, as was in Miss Anthony; or that such a character should be formed, and such views and exercises excited by it. Nothing but that invisible, divine power, even the Spirit of God, which the Bible represents as necessary to form men to a truly christian character, could produce this effect, by which she was brought to a temper and practice, so agreeable to the dictates of the scriptures, and so opposite to that which was natural to her, and to all mankind. By this her selfishness, pride, and a vain worldly spirit were subdued, and she was formed to benevolence and humility; was weaned from this world, and all the objects of time and sense, pronouncing them mere trifles and vanity; her affection was strongly fixed on invisible, spiritual objects; choosing the God revealed in the Bible as her only portion: sensibly feeling, that in the enjoyment of him, there is complete and endless happiness.

Here we have a witness to all this. Of one who ap pears sensible and rational, and as capable of judging as

any one, after long study and experience, having passed through many trials and temptations, making the most deliberate choice and resolutions to look for happiness in nothing but the service and enjoyment of Christ; and cheerfully resting her eternal interest on this foundation. It is acknowledged she is not the only witness. There have been thousands who, living and dying, have borne the same testimony. And many such witnesses are now living. But this excellent person is an eminent one, who is to be added to the rest, and is an incontestible evidence, considered by itself, that christianity is from heaven.

And it will serve to strengthen and establish the faith of real christians to find one experiencing, expressing and acting out, in a higher and more eminent degree, those christian graces and exercises, which they have experienced in a lower measure.

And when they who are not christians, observe the union and agreement of christians, in their ideas, and feelings, though they are more conspicuous and eminent in some than in others and that persons of different ages and countries, agree in the same kind of christian exercises and experimental religion; they have matter of conviction set before them that christianity has a divine original; and opportunity to learn in what it does most essentially consist.

WE have, also, in this instance, a fresh and striking evidence of the excellence, worth and importance of christianity.

How does it enlarge and ennoble the mind of man, and raise it to the most affecting and astonishing views of those infinitely grand and glorious objects and truths, which are exhibited in the work of redemption ! Even the only true God displayed in all the uncreated beauty and glory of his infinite perfections, in this greatest and most wonderful work; suited to excite the strongest, everlasting exercises of love and wonder, of benevolence, delight and gratitude; by which the soul is transformed into a real likeness to the divine moral character; is united to the Savior, and brought into the real enjoyment of God, which gives ineffable satisfaction and de

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