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read it, and should be glad to see it back again, but I want you to have it, and hope you may."

To her Brother.

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Torquay, Jan. 2nd, 1857. My dearest William,

* I long to hear from you from Tetbury, what you are doing, or the doings you find going on there. I hope you won't find the large church so trying when you get used to it. You have been a great deal in my mind lately, and I do indeed pray that you may be made the instrument of much good there in bringing souls to a knowledge of their SAVIOUR, and glory to GOD.

“I wish you would always speak and write freely to me, for God has very often blessed your words and made them very

useful to me. I have consecrated myself anew to His service at His Altar, and I entreat you to pray that I may be entirely His. As you say you feel yourself, I don't seem to grow in holiness. I am reading Madame Guyon's Life. What entire oneness with God she seems to have attained; but what years of trial she went through first! I suppose we ought not to be impatient even to become sanctified, since CHRIST is the Finisher as well as the Author of our faith,—He will complete it in His own good time if we will only resign ourselves entirely to Him, which it is my wish and intention [to do), but I seem so often to forget that I have any one's pleasure to consult but my own. Self is indeed hateful to my soul, but manages to creep in unnoticed at all points. But it is post-time. I wish I could write as I feel, and speak to you when I see you, dearest William, for you help me more than any one.

Ever your very affectionate sister,

“ M. H, M. BROWNLOW."

To the same.

Torquay, Jan. 20th. “ My dearest William, - Thank

you
for your
letter. I am very

thankful you have an earnest fellow labourer, and by your account the people seem attentive, and I do trust many may receive the Word into an honest heart, where it will bring forth abundant fruit to God's glory and your encouragement.

A deep abiding sense of our own utter weakness and sinfulness is indeed what we all need (I especially) to make us depend solely on God and seek entire unity with Him.

The Life of Madame Guyon, mentioned in the former of the last two letters, appears to have been made of great service to Melise. The lofty aspirations of that remarkable woman, and the steadiness with which she pursued the prize set before her, even union with God, excited the admiration of the subject of this Memoir, and encouraged her in following such a noble example. The defects of Madame Guyon's teaching were such as were not likely to affect a person of such humility as Melise, who would have been the last to have supposed herself to have attained what S. Paul tells the Philippians he had not; she certainly never exhibited any of those peculiarities which are supposed to be characteristics of Quietism. Her own remarks on the Life of the Rev. R. A. Suckling, written more than two years before this, show the spirit in which she habitually studied religious biography. “It is very interesting: still there is much to pause over and consider ; like the inner history of all holy men, there is a great deal of instruction to ourselves,--are we so earnestly and fervently striving to work God's Will ?" . It was evidently in this spirit that she read Madame Guyon's Life, which she perused with great attention; in fact, one of the last things she did while able to write was to copy out for her mother's use that lady's Instructions for Prayer.

To Miss M. A. H- another cousin with whom she had much communication on spiritual things, she writes :

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Jan. 5th, 1857. My dearest M-,

I make it a special prayer for you that God would in His own good time give you calmness of spirit, which cannot fail to be the case when we see God in all that befals us. But how difficult it is to resign ourselves entirely into His Hands! I thought I had done it long ago, but I find self reigning still. I formally promised and vowed at His Altar the first Sunday of this year, with His help to be for ever entirely His. Oh! dear, pray that I may never in any degree withdraw this promise, but may have grace to fulfil it. I am reading Madame Guyon's Life; it is so interesting-do get it from the Library; she seems to have had no will, not the slightest wish that was not God's; but she had to bear many crosses, before she reached such a state of perfection. But oh! how can we dread the Cross, if it leads to such a crown ? to be one with God-only think, and that here on earth! I would that He would pile them on me as heavy as ever I can bear it, if only He would bring me out into Himself with this horrid self quite crushed out. But our times are in His Hands; my prayer is, 'Spare me not, but make me one with Thee, O LORD. GOD has indeed been gracious to me, and is just beginning to show me how utterly vile and worthless I am, and how ungrateful for such favours. I cannot say, I can only pray for a small share of grace, because I am not worthy of more ;-I am not worthy of the smallest crumb! but with Himself, I boldly ask for all the universe contains. I cannot do without CHRIST, and with Him will He not surely give us all things ? It is a fault too many fall into, in being too modest to ask or expect perfection; the consequence is, they fall very far short of it ; but has not God said, “Be ye holy, even as I am Holy," and will He require anything impossible of us ? He only requires that we subject our wills to His, and He will make us what He requires ; for we cannot make ourselves holy in any way. Faith in His Power, and submission, or rather acquiescence in His Will is our share ; and let us pray earnestly for each other that we may possess it, and not be too anxious for the consolations of His grace when He may see best to withhold them from us. Sympathy must be acquired by constant perseverance and prayer, I find it very hard, but if I tried it oftener, I should doubtless find it easier. With much love in Him,

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very
affectionate sister,

“M. H. M. B."

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To Miss L-

Commenced January 20th. “My dearest L-,

I am very glad you may have that book, 1 “ Ye shall be holy, for I am holy.”—Levit. xi. 44, quoted

for I do like it so much ; it brings so very forcibly before one what CHRIST suffered willingly for us; it seems impossible to read and not burn with Love. Alas that the flame so soon dies down in these cold uncongenial hearts of ours !

“ I shall be anxious to hear about your district when you have entered upon it, for I know a little of that sort of work, and none is so intensely interesting.

“ Your lying down to think and going to sleep! is what I am so very liable to do. When I sit down to meditate upon God, I am so very apt to grow drowsy; it seems so shocking, but I suppose it partly arises from the weakness of our flesh in straining after things so much above us. I generally find that I can most realise His Presence when I am silently working,-but we never should lose it. “ I think on the whole you will find your

district a great comfort to you ; it will draw you out of yourself, and help you to realize CHRIST's Presence more; for whatever we do for the poor, He has said is done to Him. Is it not a blessed thought that though we cannot see Him in the flesh, yet we can minister unto Him? 'I was hungry, and ye fed Me, I was naked and ye clothed Me. Looking at it in this light, does it not appear the greatest privilege we can be allowed ? I often feel it to be a very great trial to be cut off from it, but it is His Will; He has some other work He designs for me ;patience. It is sometimes very hard to feel myself getting better, and Heaven postponed as it were, and to say 1 S. Peter i. 15, 16. S. Matt. v. 48 : “ Be ye therefore perfect, even as your FATHER Which is in heaven is perfect."

· Melise's correspondent was unwell, and on that account obliged to lie down. She employed the time in meditation, but sometimes slept from exhaustion.

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