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fent, to hear him declare what God had done for his foul; the particulars of which you are in poffeffion of by means of a more ready scribe than I am, Mr. Morris. I never in my life faw so' fweet a countenance as he had for two or three

days afterwards. It may be faid of him, that he is returned to the days of his youth, and that his flesh is fresher than a child's, finding the favour of the King, and viewing his face with joy. He fuffers in body beyond defcription, from an oppreffion in breathing and severe fpafms; and one day, when very bad, he said, "How is it that I feel as if I was in the pains of death, and yet I have no fear? It must be that I can do all things through Chrift ftrengthening me! How have my enemies blafphemed the harmless, blamelefs, fpotlefs, Son of God, who hath never done any thing but good to me all my life through! Don't you see how gently he deals with me? Oh, I feel his yoke cafy, and his burthen light! What has been all my pain? nothing at all; for, though he has caft me down, he hath lifted me up; and, though he hath beaten me, he now embraces me. O let me have more and more confpicuous views of the King of kings, if it be his fovereign will! But I feel my feet firm upon the Rock of Ages, whether I fee more of him or not."

These last few days he has endured acute pain, which, at intervals, has caufed a little dif

quietude, but has not disturbed him as in time paft. He observed, " How can I fink with fuch a prop under me as he who bears the earth and all things up? Hold on, faith; hold on, hopehope in the mercy of God. Mercy is the moft ftriking attribute of the Moft High. It is faid that he delighteth to fhew mercy. Though a cloud now and then paffes over my mind, that rather interrupts my peace, it does not alter my ftate; for the Son of God has made my peace by the blood of his crofs, and by one offering he hath perfected for ever them that are fanctified; and in him I am accepted. It pleafed him to look upon me, vile as I am, and to take me juft as I was; it is done, and cannot be altered. God knows I never had, nor have I now, one thing to recommend myself to his favour; fo that it is all of mercy to me a finner. I have juftified the Almighty in all the bitter difpenfations I have paffed under, and I do juflify him, and will juftify him to my latest breath, for I could not do without one of them. Nevertheless, I fometimes have a dread upon me of how I fhall ftand it in the parting of foul and body. Nature fhrinks at the idea of enduring excruciating pain; and the Son of God, in his human nature, fhrunk from it too. If it be poffible, let this cup país from me; yet not my will, but thine be done.' But when God is with me, I can fay, though I walk through the valley of the fhadow of death,

I will fear no evil, for thy rod and thy ftaff they comfort me."

If this is not waxing valiant in the fight, I know not what is; nor have I the least shadow of a doubt but we fhall fee our beloved friend go off more than a conqueror through him that hath loved him; for "they overcame by the blood of the Lamb, and the word of their teftimony."

Yesterday our dear friend faid, "I have had a sweet vifitation this morning, after a fharp conflict in the night. Well may it be said, thy visitations preserve my fpirit;' and true is it, They mount up to the heavens, they go down again to the deep. He maketh the ftorm a calm, fo that the waves thereof are ftill. Then are they glad, because they be quiet; fo he bringeth them unto their defired haven :

"His wifdom conducts them, his power them defends In fafety and quiet their warfare he ends."

Laft night a friend called on him, to whom he faid, "I have had a sharp time of it, but it has been good for me that I have been afflicted; they have been the best days I have ever known. Depend on it, the cleareft work comes in our latter ftages, in order to make fure work of it. Job found this to be the cafe; there was fomething clearing to him that he was not fenfible of till his fore captivity came upon him; he faid, I have

heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now mine eye feeth thee."

The defires of the dear Doctor are more fully coming to pafs; and that which he hoped, and has long believed, of his fellow-labourer, is clearly manifefted. Of whom Mr. Jenkins faid, "The predictions of that dear man of God are now brought to bear, and yet will be more fully verified in me before I go hence. Not one of his words have fallen to the ground. His letters have been the greatest support to me, under God, of any thing I have met with; but fome have been very jealous of me on that ground, and others have faid that I refted on his teftimony, therefore it was that deliverance did not come. But God proves it was not fo, and my confcience knew it too; but I was then a prisoner, therefore it did not behove me to fpeak. I faw where they were, and what they were about; and even then I would not have exchanged states with them. The Lord forefaw what was coming to pafs, and therefore laid my cafe with weight upon his mind, and his labour of love has not been in vain. I will not fay of him, as many flatterers: do, that he never gave me a wry word, for he has' at times rebuked me fharply; yet, fo far from diffolving the tie between us, it cemented the union, and my affection for him has grown ftronger and stronger to this day. Indeed, my love to him is fuch, that I want words to exprefs

it. At the fame time I never viewed him more than an inftrument-a poor finner faved as well as myself. But God has given him a high office in his church; strong faith, and much power to plead with him; and the prayers of this righteous man have prevailed much; and my last breath shall be spent in praying God to bless and profper him both in foul and body, even as God has bleffed me by him."

Thus, my dear Lady Sanderfon, I have endeavoured to put together, as well as I am able, fome of the fayings of my invaluable friend, agreeably to the Doctor's requeft. All befides, that has dropped from his lips, my dear friend and companion, Mifs Jones, has tranfmitted to you, which is all that we can for the present recollect; and the fame unction rest upon you in reading the account as we have felt in hearing it spoken.

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Laft fabbath day Mr. Hudfon made known from the pulpit the gracious dealings of the Lord to Mr. Jenkins, to the no fmall fatisfaction of the few that have been with him in his affliction. His language was very full, and expreffive of great confolation, which he had gathered from his two laft vifits at Malling.

I think the Doctor would like him much for his honefty and uprightness. Mr. J. feels very much knit to him, believing him to be a tried man, and one that is taught of God-a fcribe

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