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10. Do I believe that I am bound to give up my heart and life to the service of God?

11. Do I believe it my solemn duty to make a public profession of religion; and do I think that I am called upon to maintain a consistent Christian profession?

12. What is my candid and free opinion as to the nature of what are called the amusements of the world, such as theatres, balls, games, &c ?

13. Is it my opinion that I could with any kind of consistency engage in these things?

14. Do I love any of these things now?

15. Should I be led astray in relation to these things, what do I think ought to be my own opinion of my spiritual state, and what do I think ought to be the conduct of my pastor towards me?

16. Do I think that I ought to be much engaged in advancing the Lord's cause by every lawful means?

17. Am I determined by the grace of God to adorn the doctrine of God my Saviour, and let my light shine-to grow in con. formity to God-and to seek, above all things, the glory of God and the salvation of my soul?

18. Have I prayed over these questions, and have I answered them sincerely, and in the fear of God? Be not deceived, God is not mocked.'

Let your answers be full and explicit. What I want is to ascertain the state of your mind as to the things of religion. Thus I may know how to adapt my Christian instruction to your

case.

Let your answers be written on a separate sheet of letter-paper, and let the number affixed to your answers correspond carefully with the questions.

If on any point you are in doubt, come to me. Gladly will I seek to direct you in any thing which concerns your eternal peace and pray with you, and for you-for my heart's desire is that you may be saved, and be made, by your precept and exam

ple, the instrument of saving others-which may God grant, for his mercy's sake in Jesus Christ the Lord.

"Your Friend and Pastor."

When there was inability satisfactorily to write in reply to these questions, or great objections to doing it, he gave two copies of the following also, which contained his views of proper replies to the questions proposed, and one of which they were required to subscribe and return to him.

1. I do acknowledge and feel it sensibly; and if I know my. self to be a sinner, how much more perfectly does God see and know it!

2. I know that the Lord Jesus Christ has said, 'Except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish.' I believe that every impenitent sinner is under the condemnation of God, and the only good reason why I think I have repented is, that I have now most solemnly determined to forsake all sin, and, by the help of God, to serve him and him alone. I feel a sorrow for my sins; oh! that I felt more; but, Lord, enable me to leave sin for ever.

3. This is a hard question, and requires deep searching of heart. I do most sincerely believe that God has given me new feelings, and views, and motives, and objects. I think now of myself as a poor lost sinner; I think of God as a just and holy God, and of purer eyes than to behold iniquity. I think differently of almost every thing; I love what I formerly disliked; I dislike what I once loved; I feel that I desire to do the will of God, and that my aim is the salvation of my soul; the world has not its former hold upon me, but I give up myself most willingly to serve God. If these may be evidences of a change of heart, I can answer this question, that I have these reasons to believe that my heart is changed.

4. I am sure of this, I do not wish any other foundation, even if I could find it.

5. I do, and I accept his free offer of salvation to myself; I take it as a free gift, unmerited by me now, and never to be paid for. 'Oh! to grace how much a debtor !'

6. No, I know and feel this.

7. I do.

8. I do.

9. I do.

10. I do, and am determined, by the grace of God, so to do. 11. I feel it my duty, and it is my anxious desire, and I know that consistency is demanded of me.

12. I think them all sinful, inasmuch as they are contrary to the express command, which says, Come out and be separate. Deny yourself.' And I think they tend directly to lead away the mind from God.

13. Most certainly not.

14. No.

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15. I ought to think myself described in that saying of Scripture, Thou hast left thy first love,' and that my spiritual state would call for deep repentance, and a speedy return to God, and that my pastor ought to warn, rebuke, pray for and with me, and if all this fail to reclaim me, refuse me the privileges I had heretofore so very unworthily enjoyed.

16. I do, and I will do so, by the help of God.

17. I am.

18. I have.

And now, O Lord, receive this my solemn dedication of myself to thee; I am thine by every right, but especially as bought with the precious blood of Christ. I here renounce all self-dependence. Take me as I am. Seal me as thine own. Do with me as thou wilt. Enable me to love and serve thee as I ought to do. Guide me by thy counsel, and, when I die, receive me to glory, through the riches of thy grace in thy dear Son Jesus Christ. Amen."

After persons were admitted to the communion of his Church, he adopted many instruments of personal watchfulness over them. He held stated and frequent meetings of the communicants, at which, questions submitted by themselves relating to the various aspects of personal religion were considered, and his views upon them, relieving difficulties, dissolving doubts, and guiding in duties, were freely and fully expressed. These meetings were found especially profitable by them, and were particularly interesting to him. He would express his delight in reference to such occasions, in the remark, "that when meeting such an assembly, he had the delightful consciousness that there was not one who did not at least profess to love the Saviour; but when he met the great congregation, his soul was burdened with the reflection, that so many listened who were, and were likely to remain, the enemies of God." His letters to absent members of his Church would have furnished a delightful addition to our history at our present point were they accessible. Three of such communications follow, addressed to two members of the communion of St. Andrew's Church, who were temporarily absent from the city, and while they show how real and deep was the interest which he took in those who were thus connected with him, they only increase our regret that they are the only letters of the kind within our reach.

"My great anxiety to accompany my letter with the interesting little book which I promised, has kept me from writing much

longer than I had intended; and now when I am able to obtain the book, there is not to my knowledge any private opportunity by which it may be sent, so that I have determined no longer to delay the letter, though it must be without the book.

"On some accounts, I am not sorry that my letter has been delayed, because it has given me the opportunity of saying, that I have heard very good accounts of you, from a source of which you are not aware. I can truly adopt the language of the Apostle John, and say, ' I have no greater joy, than that my children walk in the truth'—and it has given me much satisfaction to have learned, that your whole deportment while in R, has been such as became the solemn profession of religion which you have made. I candidly confess that I had some misgivings of heart when I heard of your contemplated journey; not because I had the smallest doubt of your sincerity, but because I knew so well the difficulties by which a young female who makes a profession of religion is surrounded, especially abroad. It is a difficult matter to maintain a decided Christian walk and conversation, even when at home, and amidst our friends, and engaged in our ordinary occupations; but it is still more difficult when abroad, and among those whom we may be desirous to please, even at some sacrifice. But I am anxious for you, my dear chiid, (if I may call a young lady my child in the Gospel sense of the term, for I desire to feel and to speak as a father,) not only that you should maintain consistency of religious deportment, but that you should improve in spiritual things, and that you should even seek to be of advantage to those who are about you. Religion, recommended not only by the example, but by the precepts of one so young as you, is a rare, and will always be a lovely exhibition. I trust you know, for I have sought to be faithful in imparting instruction, that it is impossible to maintain a Christian walk and conversation without the most steady perseverance in the great and arduous duties of prayer, reading, meditation and self-examination. I urge you, never, in all the engagements and plans upon which you enter, never to let one single circumstance interfere

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